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I'm Just a Kid

I'm just a kid.. and my life is a nightmare.....
I'm turning 14 this May, much to my sorrow, I'm moving much closer to PMR..[shudder..]
My life feels a whole lot shorter as I grow older. You might say that I still have a loooong way to go, but can you imagine tnat it just feels like yesterday I was sitting for my UPSR. Form 1 also felt like a dream. Till now I still can't believe I'm in Faris and I'm already a teen. Truth be told, I don't think I'm ready to embrace teenagehood yet. Peer pressure, boys..I shy away from the thought of marriage or even coupling. It's too scary. Taboo. And therefore, I have always been labeled 'immatured' by most of my classmates. To my opinion, dating some one does not make you an adult[okay, they do it, but I don't think it is appropriate to do so at my age]. School is a whole lot more important than wasting your time and money on dates, SMSes and whatnot. Perhaps my way of thinking might still be that of a child..I'm not sure. I've gotta admit I'm so naiive about people, or maybe I just lack communication with people as I am an anti-social. Sometimes people are so hard to predict...[sigh]

This maybe used in a psychological analysis as I feel that I've got an identity crisis. Please help.
Woe is me..
I'm just a kid .. and my life is a nightmare..I'm just a kid..


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