everything we had

I'm still so emo about the Sime Darby interview on the 6th, I'm not going to spare any details yet, but I really think that I didn't make it this time. I just knew that after the 3rd Level of assessment, there will be a fourth level of assessment, and Sime Darby is only giving the scholarship to 8 people, man! That is so cruel, talk about the real world, wake up, people, this is reality! In real life, chances are that slim, to get jobs and such. This is just the beginning, I bet there are a lot more times through out your life that you will be interviewed. So, anyway, I thought I did okay for the first part, second part, I thought that I could have spoken more, I could have done better, third part, honstly speaking, I didn't know what to do. What I learnt (since I'm going to take this positively as a learning experience) from the interview is that, you should be more firm in yourself, I seem a bit hesitant in certain parts, especially when it comes to those areas that I don't have background knowledge of, yes, the one about managerial positions. So, what I could improve on are my substance and getting my ideas out with more clarity. I have this problem of not being able to find the correct word. Should practise more on my speaking skills, I'm a debater for God's sakes, and it irks me that those who were not even debaters could speak. Certainly, I could have done better. Anyway, that was done and over with. I just needed to get it out of my system..so, off to PLKN (no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)