When all there is between you and me
are miles and miles of separation and distance,
time and anticipation
the only thing that keeps us holding on,
are merely words of love
and unconditional TRUST.
My absence
does not necessarily equate to a deficit
in my affection,
rather, I think of you often
to keep the fire burning at night
so that I don't succumb to the merciless cold.
no matter what the risks are,
I'd gamble all my luck
if winning is worth everything.
no matter how far
or how long time keeps you away from me,
separated by two glass walls,
or blinded in a pitch black room,
I'd still find you.
no matter how fate can turn you inside out,
or upside down
FAITH
will keep things together,
drawn like gravity,
and leads the rivers back to the ocean.
HOPE
will give strength to dreams;
the extra step to conquer the mountain;
the reason to keep believing and pushing on.
Trust me,
Don't give up on hope
Don't give up on dreams
Don't give up on faith
Don't give up on LOVE.
note: inspired by Cheryl Cole's Fight For This Love. (quote: If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for). this is not the rhyming verse format of poems, it's more like a Malay sajak structure. Very simple choice of words, almost conversational, not that metaphoric, although there are a few here. I have not written poems for so many years. I think I suck at it now. I wonder when was the last time I posted a poem. I wrote this poem for my friends, family and for those in a long-distance relationship. Yeah, challenging, aite? Okay, I know this is hard for me to admit, I don't read lovey dovey novels nor watch lovey dovey dramas nor swoon at lovey dovey movies, and I may not be a true blue romantic, but I am jiwang when it comes to songs and poetry. ohhh....God! spare me, this is so damn jiwaaaaaannnnnngg........
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Art and Life
In Sepet, Orked says, "Every Malay is lazy."
hahaha.Who couldn't agree more? Is it because they embrace the fact that makes it so much harder to change their mindset?
I know it's a tad bit old. I just started watching Yasmin Ahmad's films. Well, in my house you don't get much Malay movies. I've seen a few Malay movies and not many are worth my money nor to be deemed watchable, sadly. However, for a local film, Yasmin Ahmad's movies are a class of their own.
There is a sense of 'art' in which each scene is captured. It feels a lot more 'real' than other Malay movies. It is not superficial like other Malay movies, where they always capture KL life, polished homes, even some of the rumah papan looks so fake. The diversity in language and culture portrayed as well as the use of music from different ethnicities, it makes it all the more interesting. Another fact that I liked it is a lot of use of English. ngee~
Orked's character is engaging. There was one scene in Sepet she was at a party, but she was wearing baju kurung, I mean, seriously la, who goes to late night parties wearing baju kurung? But with a touch of Yasmin Ahmad, it seems acceptable. Orked pulled it off. Her character's personality is convincing, and she's far from the streotypical Malay movies characters. She's got SPUNK. She breathes life into the story. Sharifah Amani is to Yasmin Ahmad like Johnny Depp is to Tim Burton.
The characters are interesting and well-developed and very colorful. A troubled Chinese guy who comes from a broken family and gets into all sorts of messy situations, but writes poetry. A Malay-speaking Nyonya in a Mandarin-speaking household. I still don't get how Yam the supposedly orang gaji have so much 'authority' over her employers. So far I've only watched Gubra and Sepet. The plots are very simple. They are just a story about life, but the execution was unconventional, for a local film lah. It's not a cutboard cutout, and although you can sometimes predict what is going to happen, but you are still entertained and you just let the movie take you for the ride. I have yet to watch Muhsin, Talentime and Muallaf. Well, they're available on DVD, I haven't bought them yet.
hahaha.Who couldn't agree more? Is it because they embrace the fact that makes it so much harder to change their mindset?
There is a sense of 'art' in which each scene is captured. It feels a lot more 'real' than other Malay movies. It is not superficial like other Malay movies, where they always capture KL life, polished homes, even some of the rumah papan looks so fake. The diversity in language and culture portrayed as well as the use of music from different ethnicities, it makes it all the more interesting. Another fact that I liked it is a lot of use of English. ngee~
The characters are interesting and well-developed and very colorful. A troubled Chinese guy who comes from a broken family and gets into all sorts of messy situations, but writes poetry. A Malay-speaking Nyonya in a Mandarin-speaking household. I still don't get how Yam the supposedly orang gaji have so much 'authority' over her employers. So far I've only watched Gubra and Sepet. The plots are very simple. They are just a story about life, but the execution was unconventional, for a local film lah. It's not a cutboard cutout, and although you can sometimes predict what is going to happen, but you are still entertained and you just let the movie take you for the ride. I have yet to watch Muhsin, Talentime and Muallaf. Well, they're available on DVD, I haven't bought them yet.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
How Much I Watch FIFA This Year
I am generally not a football fan. I don't have that attention span to watch how the ball gets passed around back and forth between two ends of the field, and I just don't get the hype to shout "GOAL!". I've watched FIFA finals in 2004, and that's about that. I don't watch EPL, or any other football matches. Well, I value sleep more than having to stay up at 2 am to watch football. Then in 2009, I watched the Kelantan-Negeri Sembilan match, and I decided, that's it, I'm not watching anymore local football. It was so agitating watching them play like amateurs compared to the real action in FIFA.
So far, this year, I watched:
Germany vs. Serbia
Portugal vs. Korea DPR
Brazil vs. Portugal
Germany vs. England
Paraguay vs. Japan
Spain vs. Portugal
Not that many matches, I know. During prelims, I only watch the 7 o'clock slots.Yeah, I hate to stay up, and I'm more likely to be in front of the computer. I actually stayed up until 2 for Spain and Portugal last night. hoyeah.
Brazil's really nice to watch. However, I really like Germany's precision. The way the ball goes through the opponents' legs (this sounds a bit weird, but I'm not implying anything dirty), the passing, the shooting, the strategy. So next one is Germany vs. Argentina. Go Germany!
Oh, and thanks to Filzah, baru nak kenal-kenal berjinak-jinak dengan Spanish players yang handsome: Cesc Fabregas, David Villa. (That's what we girls are most focused on anyways).
I know Filzah doesn't like Cristiano Ronaldo, but he's boleh tahanlah. Due to the fact that I debated on a motion about him once in UIA, so there's this weird kind of 'affection' for him. The eyebrows are interesting. haha. Just kidding.
Oh, in my school days, I enjoyed playing football during P.E. although I don't play that often. Even in my highschool days, if given the chance to play Futsal, I'd play any day. I don't like to play basketball or handballor netball or hockey or volley ball or badminton, I just don't know why. I just don't like it. The few games that I enjoy playing or could actually play is golf, baseball and futsal. Yeah, I'm not a pro on the actual rules and regulations, since we just play among girls for fun, we just end up shouting and screaming while chasing the ball. Yeah, being girls, missed passing and all that stuff is normal. Only me (with luck that I share my birthday with David Beckham, ceh, berkait ke?) and a few girls actually were into it. Me and those few girls, I remebered Massurie and Faezah would go for high balls and yeah, We'd rough it out with each other, but it was fun. ahhh..good ole' innocent school days.
okayyy..that's about it on my FIFA fever. Not that bad-lah. At least I'm feelin' it this year.
So far, this year, I watched:
Germany vs. Serbia
Portugal vs. Korea DPR
Brazil vs. Portugal
Germany vs. England
Paraguay vs. Japan
Spain vs. Portugal
Not that many matches, I know. During prelims, I only watch the 7 o'clock slots.Yeah, I hate to stay up, and I'm more likely to be in front of the computer. I actually stayed up until 2 for Spain and Portugal last night. hoyeah.
Brazil's really nice to watch. However, I really like Germany's precision. The way the ball goes through the opponents' legs (this sounds a bit weird, but I'm not implying anything dirty), the passing, the shooting, the strategy. So next one is Germany vs. Argentina. Go Germany!
I know Filzah doesn't like Cristiano Ronaldo, but he's boleh tahanlah. Due to the fact that I debated on a motion about him once in UIA, so there's this weird kind of 'affection' for him. The eyebrows are interesting. haha. Just kidding.
Oh, in my school days, I enjoyed playing football during P.E. although I don't play that often. Even in my highschool days, if given the chance to play Futsal, I'd play any day. I don't like to play basketball or handballor netball or hockey or volley ball or badminton, I just don't know why. I just don't like it. The few games that I enjoy playing or could actually play is golf, baseball and futsal. Yeah, I'm not a pro on the actual rules and regulations, since we just play among girls for fun, we just end up shouting and screaming while chasing the ball. Yeah, being girls, missed passing and all that stuff is normal. Only me (with luck that I share my birthday with David Beckham, ceh, berkait ke?) and a few girls actually were into it. Me and those few girls, I remebered Massurie and Faezah would go for high balls and yeah, We'd rough it out with each other, but it was fun. ahhh..good ole' innocent school days.
okayyy..that's about it on my FIFA fever. Not that bad-lah. At least I'm feelin' it this year.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Harap Maklum, I'm a Drama Queen
Here are a few things:
1. Sudah lama tidak online YM. Tiada nafsu berbuat demikian.
2. I have been wondering.... saya ni cakap berbelit ke sampai orang kena tafsir double meaning di sebalik apa yang saya cakapkan itu?
I SERIOUSLY hate to berkias. Nak berkias pun tak reti, anyway, I also hate orang berkias. Macamlah I get it. I treat sentences literally, except when I'm joking of course, but it is rare that if I am annoyed or angry or disapproving of something that I use kiasan to express those feelings. Even if I am in a situation where I can't let those emotions out straight up, it will definitely show on my face, yes, but I'd rather SHUT UP than berkias.
I find it frustrating, and at certain times offensive when I type something or I text something, I am clearly not angry or upset or anything, or maybe because I unintentionally worded the thing like I sound as if I'm angry, they end up asking me, "are you pissed? are you being sarcastic with me?" Sometimes, when I type something, I have never even thought of such a thing that these people accuse me of trying to say. How can they understand the sentence differently than I meant it to be?
I don't know whether it's because of the wording of my sentneces, or is it due to the general perception that women like to berkias, but harrrrhhhhh...you know how it feels being misunderstood? It's that unnecessary strain in a relationship, be it with friends, family or otherwise.
You don't have to read between the lines with me. I mean every sentences like it is. Okay, maybe sometimes I do say things that I think people want to hear in certain cases, and I omit certain things to 'bend' the truth a bit, yeah, everybody has little white lies, but it depends on how often they use it. I am not a liar, even if I did lie, it's never convincing enough, so why try in the first place? I always end up telling the truth or owning up sooner or later because I felt bad getting away with it, and having to keep living that lie. Sometimes, I get caught red-handed, I might be in denial at first, but eventually, I do own up, and I try to take my punishments like a man. Berani buat, berani tanggunglah.
Still, I keep wondering if I said the wrong thing or something. Different people perceive things differently. Those who know me know what I'm like. I HATE being accused of being something that I'm not. It happens a lot to me. Maybe what they said might be true, which is why I always do self-reflection after what is being said. I ask people am I really that ____ ? Some of them might just say it just to bring me down, while at other times, there might be some truth to it and perhaps maybe I am that annoying b**** that people say I am and I must change. I know, sometimes when people give me advice, I might seem like I'm in denial, and they don't bother advising me because they're afraid I'd shoot them down or something. Yes, I have that arrogance sometimes, but usually, it takes time for me to actually see their point, and I actually do at the end of the day, and I'm cool with it. The reason why I can't accept it the first time around is either because I'm so self-absorbed in beating myself up, or feeling that I was right, or that I was stubburn and still enveloped in a fit of rage. Once I come to my senses, all is fine. The rage is gone.
So now, I am asking you. Am I all that hard to figure out? Do I actually berkias without me actually realising it? As far as I know, I don't think I did. I don't think I mean to berkias. Oh, and does berkias = sindir ? I am sarcastic and I do sindir sometimes (most of it meant as a joke, never to offend a person, even if I am not on good terms with that person), but I don't berkias to get my way or to manipulate people.
I am actually quite straightforward, well, there are times I don't give a straight answer, but that's because either I am evading it, or I really am not sure what to answer, but I don't berkias. That's kind of rare. Most of the time that happens is when I'm not sure of my feelings about someone. Sue me, I'm a heartbreaker. But when I say something like, "I remembered 'something, something' " something really random, I really meant it.Weird random things always pop up in my head at times, especially all those trivia and almanac facts. Even if it's not weird random things, it could be something that I've been thinking a lot about, or there were dreams that bothered me, and I mean it like it is. I was just telling you that I thought of those things. I don't use those things to get at you, or insinuate that I want something from you. That's so damn low in my opinion. Manipulative! I friggin' HATE people like that. Using other people to get their way.
I hate it when there's unnecessary misunderstanding, it leads to preconceived suspicions and all that crap that puts a strain on a relationship. Well, sometimes I'm afraid to explain myself just in case if things get worse and people misintepret what I say and it gets worse than it already is. That's why sometimes, I put off saying these things to you, it's not that I don't want to tell you how I feel, I really feel like saying it. I really feel like saying directly that I'm upset, but yeah, I'm afraid you'd take it the wrong way. But I know I have to do myself justice eventually. People judge. Some say that it's a pathetic attempt to save myself that I always need to explain myself. I am not playing the martyr here. The thing is, I don't want to be the typical people that people perceive other people. Yes, who doesnt want to do themselves justice if they feel that they are right? Discussions might resolve the problem, other than just let it hang and pretend nothing's happen. That sentiment will still be there, and it'll be like a cancer. It gets worse. Who knows, with that dicussion not only will you reconcile but you actually learn new things about yourself, and you actually know what to improve on. I try to be honest, and I hope that you'll be honest with me too, no matter how ugly it might get. It's better being honest than let the cancer slowly kill you.
If you're really bengang with me, just tell me that you're bengang although I might cry and get all defensive, but at the end of the day, it'll always come down to thinking about why you're bengang with me in the first place? Is there anything I can do fix it? Let's say you're bengang and then you shut up about it because you don't want me to get upset, yes, you're trying to jaga perasaan and all that s***, but then, it'll never get resolved if you do that. If I don't know that you're bengang, how will I know what you're bengang with me about? How do I resolve whatever problem that you're bengang with me? Okay, maybe I expressed myself better in writing, I might want to say this to you upfront, but maybe it came out differently and you misunderstood, again! But what I'm writing here, I really mean it, I didn't susun my ayat and choose words to make it effective. There is no tips and tricks behind all this, but maybe when I write, I actually thought things over more carefully and rationally than when I'm speaking. Sometimes my mouth and emotions get the better of me.
Another thing is I hate being a hipocrite. I don't pretend to be nice when I actually hate you. I usually just avoid people I hate. If I were to cooperate with those people that I'm not on good terms with, okay fine, no prob, I try keep it as professional as possible. I don't suck it up to them and pretend being nice, whereas somewhere in my head I'd so much like to get back at that person. Being nice to fix the relationship is okay, to me that's an honest effort to patch things up, but some people don't actually want to patch things up, they're more interested to get back at you, and they pretend to be nice, then backstabs you. All that "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer" bulls***.
*sigh* there's so many kinds of people in the world, and we have to live it.
-oh, at the end of the day, even if I try to write in Malay to express myself, I always end up using English. not bragging, okay.oh, just in case you're wondering. I sound angry in this post, yes, I am angry, but not to the point of stark raving mad, just a regular kind of geram that you feel when you read about child molestations in the paper, not the kind of angry that you feel when your sister is the one being molested.I hope you get me.damn, berbelit.(oh this is sindir.*with a realisation-just hit me face* hahahahha..this is damn funny, I am too muchlah.)-
PEACE OUT, People. =)
1. Sudah lama tidak online YM. Tiada nafsu berbuat demikian.
2. I have been wondering.... saya ni cakap berbelit ke sampai orang kena tafsir double meaning di sebalik apa yang saya cakapkan itu?
I SERIOUSLY hate to berkias. Nak berkias pun tak reti, anyway, I also hate orang berkias. Macamlah I get it. I treat sentences literally, except when I'm joking of course, but it is rare that if I am annoyed or angry or disapproving of something that I use kiasan to express those feelings. Even if I am in a situation where I can't let those emotions out straight up, it will definitely show on my face, yes, but I'd rather SHUT UP than berkias.
I find it frustrating, and at certain times offensive when I type something or I text something, I am clearly not angry or upset or anything, or maybe because I unintentionally worded the thing like I sound as if I'm angry, they end up asking me, "are you pissed? are you being sarcastic with me?" Sometimes, when I type something, I have never even thought of such a thing that these people accuse me of trying to say. How can they understand the sentence differently than I meant it to be?
I don't know whether it's because of the wording of my sentneces, or is it due to the general perception that women like to berkias, but harrrrhhhhh...you know how it feels being misunderstood? It's that unnecessary strain in a relationship, be it with friends, family or otherwise.
You don't have to read between the lines with me. I mean every sentences like it is. Okay, maybe sometimes I do say things that I think people want to hear in certain cases, and I omit certain things to 'bend' the truth a bit, yeah, everybody has little white lies, but it depends on how often they use it. I am not a liar, even if I did lie, it's never convincing enough, so why try in the first place? I always end up telling the truth or owning up sooner or later because I felt bad getting away with it, and having to keep living that lie. Sometimes, I get caught red-handed, I might be in denial at first, but eventually, I do own up, and I try to take my punishments like a man. Berani buat, berani tanggunglah.
Still, I keep wondering if I said the wrong thing or something. Different people perceive things differently. Those who know me know what I'm like. I HATE being accused of being something that I'm not. It happens a lot to me. Maybe what they said might be true, which is why I always do self-reflection after what is being said. I ask people am I really that ____ ? Some of them might just say it just to bring me down, while at other times, there might be some truth to it and perhaps maybe I am that annoying b**** that people say I am and I must change. I know, sometimes when people give me advice, I might seem like I'm in denial, and they don't bother advising me because they're afraid I'd shoot them down or something. Yes, I have that arrogance sometimes, but usually, it takes time for me to actually see their point, and I actually do at the end of the day, and I'm cool with it. The reason why I can't accept it the first time around is either because I'm so self-absorbed in beating myself up, or feeling that I was right, or that I was stubburn and still enveloped in a fit of rage. Once I come to my senses, all is fine. The rage is gone.
So now, I am asking you. Am I all that hard to figure out? Do I actually berkias without me actually realising it? As far as I know, I don't think I did. I don't think I mean to berkias. Oh, and does berkias = sindir ? I am sarcastic and I do sindir sometimes (most of it meant as a joke, never to offend a person, even if I am not on good terms with that person), but I don't berkias to get my way or to manipulate people.
I am actually quite straightforward, well, there are times I don't give a straight answer, but that's because either I am evading it, or I really am not sure what to answer, but I don't berkias. That's kind of rare. Most of the time that happens is when I'm not sure of my feelings about someone. Sue me, I'm a heartbreaker. But when I say something like, "I remembered 'something, something' " something really random, I really meant it.Weird random things always pop up in my head at times, especially all those trivia and almanac facts. Even if it's not weird random things, it could be something that I've been thinking a lot about, or there were dreams that bothered me, and I mean it like it is. I was just telling you that I thought of those things. I don't use those things to get at you, or insinuate that I want something from you. That's so damn low in my opinion. Manipulative! I friggin' HATE people like that. Using other people to get their way.
I hate it when there's unnecessary misunderstanding, it leads to preconceived suspicions and all that crap that puts a strain on a relationship. Well, sometimes I'm afraid to explain myself just in case if things get worse and people misintepret what I say and it gets worse than it already is. That's why sometimes, I put off saying these things to you, it's not that I don't want to tell you how I feel, I really feel like saying it. I really feel like saying directly that I'm upset, but yeah, I'm afraid you'd take it the wrong way. But I know I have to do myself justice eventually. People judge. Some say that it's a pathetic attempt to save myself that I always need to explain myself. I am not playing the martyr here. The thing is, I don't want to be the typical people that people perceive other people. Yes, who doesnt want to do themselves justice if they feel that they are right? Discussions might resolve the problem, other than just let it hang and pretend nothing's happen. That sentiment will still be there, and it'll be like a cancer. It gets worse. Who knows, with that dicussion not only will you reconcile but you actually learn new things about yourself, and you actually know what to improve on. I try to be honest, and I hope that you'll be honest with me too, no matter how ugly it might get. It's better being honest than let the cancer slowly kill you.
If you're really bengang with me, just tell me that you're bengang although I might cry and get all defensive, but at the end of the day, it'll always come down to thinking about why you're bengang with me in the first place? Is there anything I can do fix it? Let's say you're bengang and then you shut up about it because you don't want me to get upset, yes, you're trying to jaga perasaan and all that s***, but then, it'll never get resolved if you do that. If I don't know that you're bengang, how will I know what you're bengang with me about? How do I resolve whatever problem that you're bengang with me? Okay, maybe I expressed myself better in writing, I might want to say this to you upfront, but maybe it came out differently and you misunderstood, again! But what I'm writing here, I really mean it, I didn't susun my ayat and choose words to make it effective. There is no tips and tricks behind all this, but maybe when I write, I actually thought things over more carefully and rationally than when I'm speaking. Sometimes my mouth and emotions get the better of me.
Another thing is I hate being a hipocrite. I don't pretend to be nice when I actually hate you. I usually just avoid people I hate. If I were to cooperate with those people that I'm not on good terms with, okay fine, no prob, I try keep it as professional as possible. I don't suck it up to them and pretend being nice, whereas somewhere in my head I'd so much like to get back at that person. Being nice to fix the relationship is okay, to me that's an honest effort to patch things up, but some people don't actually want to patch things up, they're more interested to get back at you, and they pretend to be nice, then backstabs you. All that "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer" bulls***.
*sigh* there's so many kinds of people in the world, and we have to live it.
-oh, at the end of the day, even if I try to write in Malay to express myself, I always end up using English. not bragging, okay.oh, just in case you're wondering. I sound angry in this post, yes, I am angry, but not to the point of stark raving mad, just a regular kind of geram that you feel when you read about child molestations in the paper, not the kind of angry that you feel when your sister is the one being molested.I hope you get me.damn, berbelit.(oh this is sindir.*with a realisation-just hit me face* hahahahha..this is damn funny, I am too muchlah.)-
PEACE OUT, People. =)
and I'm sayin' OMG, there's so many ways to love ya
What's with me and loong post titles now eh?
Oh, that song just popped into my head, by the way. At this point, I am so so certain I'm not getting my three essays back from my school. I should've known. Oh well, so much for keeping my hopes up, but I know I won't be seeing creative writing for a long long time.
Anyway, just blogging random thoughts these few days, nothing much going on. Just getting ready for school-I mean, college. There's a LOT of change I have to embrace. I'm pretty much terrified of not being able to cope. So, lately, I've been revising my Form 5 Add Maths (the least revised, sorry to say, I'm most teacher-centric on this subject. I think, apart from Physics, this is the only one subject that I'm very teacher-centric), Physics (teacher-centric also, but less compared to Add Maths. For these two subjects, I owe it a lot to Aiman Yusoh for helping me figure it out) and Chemistry (so far in terms of understanding, I'm fine I guess, just a lot to memorise). Even so, when I look back, SPM suddenly seemed like small fry compared to what's to come. Although I still don't get some of the things, but it suddenly seemed so basic, so elementary so... I don't know..
And to think that I will learn a lot whithin a short period of time, that spells no more last minute studying. I am so used to studying last minute for SPM. Not to say that I study last minute, I mean to say is, for mid-term, mid-semesters I do study last minute, but I ensure that I study sufficient enough for me to easily recall the facts for the next big exam so I don't have to study much even if I do study last minute for the big exam. For topic tests, I normally don't study for it, but luckily I was able to recall most of what I've learnt. I don't know if I'll have that same luck in college. Let's say I try make the best of how little or how much I study, and yes, I have my own timetable in my head. In one sitting, I always aim to finish a certain topic, and most of the time, I do. For subjects that require a lot of memorising (which is, most of the subjects, by the way) I can't do without my notes. They're like my security blanket or something, it gives me confidence to answer the exam. If lets say, I don't finish the notes I aimed to finish, I feel like I've not studied enough. I must write stuff down, but if I do the-night-before-exam-cramming, like PAI, I just read. However for Sejarah and Chemistry, if I don't do my notes, I don't feel like I've studied, so I end up doing the same notes over and over again everytime I study. That's why I don't care much if my handwriting is very 'pretty'. Even if I do reuse my notes, I will eventually add on stuff to it. Yeah, I doodle a lot too with highliters, pens and pencils. I also appreciate group-studyng if they can keep up with my pace. Especially for Add Maths and Physics, I'd always need a tutor. I stay up on average only up to 12.30 am. I've only stayed up to 2, 2.30 am once. (If it's past 2 am, that's usually coz of pillow talks. It's 'high' time around 3 am and above). Sometimes I sleep early if I don't have any work to do. Even so, if sleep gets to me, I just give in, but mind you, I hate waking up early. I've only studied early in the morning once, and nope, although people say it's better, well, my body clock just doesn't obey. I do most of my studying on my bed becuase there's lots of room to dump my books. Yes, I doze off sometimes, regardless whether it's at the desk or the bed, but it's better to doze off in the bed, because it's a better sleepig position. If I were in class, I'd usually search for an empty table and dump my books there while I studied. Yes, much to my friends' complaining, I'm a messy person. If I know I put it in that pile, I will find it in that pile, don't ever touch my stuff and put it elsewhere. Another thing is, sleep is so important to me. I usually wake up around 6 am ++. Earlier than that, I'd doze off in class. After 6, I can stay alert most of the time as long as I'm not under extreme circumstances over-exert myself over something the night before. During my PMR years, I slept A LOT. People actually say that every time they pass by my class they'd catch me sleeping. Well, sometimes, I actually advocate prep time just for sleeping, but yeah, workload is not that much at that time, so I do have time to sleep. In my SPM years, my sleeping days are over, yet I still fell asleep unintentionally in Sejarah (the Sejarah room is dark and AIR-CONDITIONED, and I'd always sleep by the window ledge where I can place my hand and rest my head. The moment I sit down, I open my book with pen in hand ready to jot down, I see the teacher come in, and the next thing I know when I opened my eyes, the kids were shutting their books and heading out and I missed a lesson of one whole chapter), Maths (the teacher always leaves us to do our work on our own. I'd finish early and wait for my friends, in the meantime, I fell asleep), Agama (Form 4 only, in Form 5, the ustazah always caught me sleeping and made me stand up), BM, Physics (Form 4 only. I was actually interested in Form 5 subjects, and yes, I was desperate). Those were the most prominent ones. Actually I did sleep at least once for every subject. I don't intend to, it just happens, but luckily my attention span improved somewhat in Form 5, and I don't doodle nor sleep that much in class. I could say that towards the end, I didn't sleep in class at all. In Form 5, I admit, I was a bit left behind in Add Maths, Sejarah, Prinsip Akaun, Physics, and I had to do A LOT of catching up, boy, it wasn't easy. Although in exams, yes, I still sleep, but for major exams, like Trials, Finals and the Big One, I don't sleep on those. For Mid-Sems, yeah. In my PMR years, plenty of sleep time since most of the papers are objectives (except for Maths, I take time answering that due to the calculations involved), so I spend like 15 minutes to answer then sleep. Usually it's Agama because I stayed up cramming the night before, and I'd do the paper in one hour until I were done (even the Ustazah noticed that most my answers were logic-based and not exactly by the book), and I'd spend the next hour sleeping. I wake up with ample time to recheck twice. Cocky? mm..maybe..that;s why I find myself making stupid, careless mistakes. Especially for Chemistry, Maths, Add Maths and Physics. It's not so much that I didn't know, but I just didn't bother enough to check to make sure my answers were correct. I was just "okay, I'm done with it." Yeah, I sound as if I'm so over-confident and laidback like I'm not taking my exams seriously just because I always get away with satisfactory grades. Well, now, I'm not sure if that attitude will do me any good in college. I definitely have to change my ways. I wouldn't like to not be able to score on my exams because I didn't know something, that would be very despairing to me, nor would I not be able to score because I was careless, that would be very frustrating. So yeah, good bye last minute studying.
OMG, why am I talking about studying? well, I very much treasure my school notes. They might look like mere scribbles and doodles, yeah, thanks to my pretty handwriting, but I usually keep them awhile before eventually throwing them out, but still, when it comes to my work, it's actually kind of sayang to throw out. Well, at least it gives me a sense of accomplishment, that I actually worked hard for something and I didn't slack around. When I look at it, I sometimes amaze myself. I'm not bragging, but sometimes, I can't help looking at those notes and say, "wow, how did I ever come up with that? and I can't come up with anything like that now? wow, I was so rajin." Sort of like self-motivation.
That's why I'd really really like my essays back.
Oh, that song just popped into my head, by the way. At this point, I am so so certain I'm not getting my three essays back from my school. I should've known. Oh well, so much for keeping my hopes up, but I know I won't be seeing creative writing for a long long time.
Anyway, just blogging random thoughts these few days, nothing much going on. Just getting ready for school-I mean, college. There's a LOT of change I have to embrace. I'm pretty much terrified of not being able to cope. So, lately, I've been revising my Form 5 Add Maths (the least revised, sorry to say, I'm most teacher-centric on this subject. I think, apart from Physics, this is the only one subject that I'm very teacher-centric), Physics (teacher-centric also, but less compared to Add Maths. For these two subjects, I owe it a lot to Aiman Yusoh for helping me figure it out) and Chemistry (so far in terms of understanding, I'm fine I guess, just a lot to memorise). Even so, when I look back, SPM suddenly seemed like small fry compared to what's to come. Although I still don't get some of the things, but it suddenly seemed so basic, so elementary so... I don't know..
And to think that I will learn a lot whithin a short period of time, that spells no more last minute studying. I am so used to studying last minute for SPM. Not to say that I study last minute, I mean to say is, for mid-term, mid-semesters I do study last minute, but I ensure that I study sufficient enough for me to easily recall the facts for the next big exam so I don't have to study much even if I do study last minute for the big exam. For topic tests, I normally don't study for it, but luckily I was able to recall most of what I've learnt. I don't know if I'll have that same luck in college. Let's say I try make the best of how little or how much I study, and yes, I have my own timetable in my head. In one sitting, I always aim to finish a certain topic, and most of the time, I do. For subjects that require a lot of memorising (which is, most of the subjects, by the way) I can't do without my notes. They're like my security blanket or something, it gives me confidence to answer the exam. If lets say, I don't finish the notes I aimed to finish, I feel like I've not studied enough. I must write stuff down, but if I do the-night-before-exam-cramming, like PAI, I just read. However for Sejarah and Chemistry, if I don't do my notes, I don't feel like I've studied, so I end up doing the same notes over and over again everytime I study. That's why I don't care much if my handwriting is very 'pretty'. Even if I do reuse my notes, I will eventually add on stuff to it. Yeah, I doodle a lot too with highliters, pens and pencils. I also appreciate group-studyng if they can keep up with my pace. Especially for Add Maths and Physics, I'd always need a tutor. I stay up on average only up to 12.30 am. I've only stayed up to 2, 2.30 am once. (If it's past 2 am, that's usually coz of pillow talks. It's 'high' time around 3 am and above). Sometimes I sleep early if I don't have any work to do. Even so, if sleep gets to me, I just give in, but mind you, I hate waking up early. I've only studied early in the morning once, and nope, although people say it's better, well, my body clock just doesn't obey. I do most of my studying on my bed becuase there's lots of room to dump my books. Yes, I doze off sometimes, regardless whether it's at the desk or the bed, but it's better to doze off in the bed, because it's a better sleepig position. If I were in class, I'd usually search for an empty table and dump my books there while I studied. Yes, much to my friends' complaining, I'm a messy person. If I know I put it in that pile, I will find it in that pile, don't ever touch my stuff and put it elsewhere. Another thing is, sleep is so important to me. I usually wake up around 6 am ++. Earlier than that, I'd doze off in class. After 6, I can stay alert most of the time as long as I'm not under extreme circumstances over-exert myself over something the night before. During my PMR years, I slept A LOT. People actually say that every time they pass by my class they'd catch me sleeping. Well, sometimes, I actually advocate prep time just for sleeping, but yeah, workload is not that much at that time, so I do have time to sleep. In my SPM years, my sleeping days are over, yet I still fell asleep unintentionally in Sejarah (the Sejarah room is dark and AIR-CONDITIONED, and I'd always sleep by the window ledge where I can place my hand and rest my head. The moment I sit down, I open my book with pen in hand ready to jot down, I see the teacher come in, and the next thing I know when I opened my eyes, the kids were shutting their books and heading out and I missed a lesson of one whole chapter), Maths (the teacher always leaves us to do our work on our own. I'd finish early and wait for my friends, in the meantime, I fell asleep), Agama (Form 4 only, in Form 5, the ustazah always caught me sleeping and made me stand up), BM, Physics (Form 4 only. I was actually interested in Form 5 subjects, and yes, I was desperate). Those were the most prominent ones. Actually I did sleep at least once for every subject. I don't intend to, it just happens, but luckily my attention span improved somewhat in Form 5, and I don't doodle nor sleep that much in class. I could say that towards the end, I didn't sleep in class at all. In Form 5, I admit, I was a bit left behind in Add Maths, Sejarah, Prinsip Akaun, Physics, and I had to do A LOT of catching up, boy, it wasn't easy. Although in exams, yes, I still sleep, but for major exams, like Trials, Finals and the Big One, I don't sleep on those. For Mid-Sems, yeah. In my PMR years, plenty of sleep time since most of the papers are objectives (except for Maths, I take time answering that due to the calculations involved), so I spend like 15 minutes to answer then sleep. Usually it's Agama because I stayed up cramming the night before, and I'd do the paper in one hour until I were done (even the Ustazah noticed that most my answers were logic-based and not exactly by the book), and I'd spend the next hour sleeping. I wake up with ample time to recheck twice. Cocky? mm..maybe..that;s why I find myself making stupid, careless mistakes. Especially for Chemistry, Maths, Add Maths and Physics. It's not so much that I didn't know, but I just didn't bother enough to check to make sure my answers were correct. I was just "okay, I'm done with it." Yeah, I sound as if I'm so over-confident and laidback like I'm not taking my exams seriously just because I always get away with satisfactory grades. Well, now, I'm not sure if that attitude will do me any good in college. I definitely have to change my ways. I wouldn't like to not be able to score on my exams because I didn't know something, that would be very despairing to me, nor would I not be able to score because I was careless, that would be very frustrating. So yeah, good bye last minute studying.
OMG, why am I talking about studying? well, I very much treasure my school notes. They might look like mere scribbles and doodles, yeah, thanks to my pretty handwriting, but I usually keep them awhile before eventually throwing them out, but still, when it comes to my work, it's actually kind of sayang to throw out. Well, at least it gives me a sense of accomplishment, that I actually worked hard for something and I didn't slack around. When I look at it, I sometimes amaze myself. I'm not bragging, but sometimes, I can't help looking at those notes and say, "wow, how did I ever come up with that? and I can't come up with anything like that now? wow, I was so rajin." Sort of like self-motivation.
That's why I'd really really like my essays back.
Billionaire
"
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire
"
Know that song?
haha.okay, so I've been thinking.
When I was little, I used to have an ambition that I'd be filthy rich and live the luxurious lifestyle like a movie star, although I might not be one. You know, have a mansion with a swimming pool and maids. A big wide-screen TV and karaoke set, high-tech gadgets, a roomful of clothes and shoes, and all the money in the world to buy anything I want, and I can spend it or give it to anyone non-chalantly because my money reserve is so bottomless, kind of like you know, the Scrooge duck in the Mickey Mouse shows.
Then, I started writng stories, and I thought if I wrote a best-seller, I'd get to that dream. well, look at me now. The only thing I'm writing now is my blog, and after this, probably thesises and research papers and academic writing.
Then, later on, my billionaire dream kind of wore away. The realistic me just thought, no way.
Then I thought about getting rich so that I don't have any debts and I could send my kids without need of scholarship for overseas education. You see, if you have your own money, it'd be a lot easier because you can choose whatever program you'd like to pursue instead of just accepting whatever options the government gives you. You can choose to apply to any university you want. There's no risk of having to pay back the scholarship money if you don't do well. Then, there's no reason to worry about getting a scholarship or not. But then again,, I'll have to be FILTHY RICH to be able to do this. Like, having a Datukship or something.
Getting rich seems like a lot of hard work for a commoner like me. Some people have it easy, being born into the family of a business mogul. Not to say that being rich is not possible, or unattainable, it is, with a lot of hard work and opportunistic attitude.
Of course, if I wanted to get rich the easy way, I could just dabble in business, or play it dirty with politics, or something like that. But no, I don't have the guts for that kind of thing. I can push myself to soldier on in pursuing something (although I might be doing it with a LOT of complaining, but I do it, nonetheless), but I don't exactly have that ruthlessness for politics nor business.
Not to say that I don't set high goals for myself. I do, but somehow, deep down inside, I know that being 'homey' and moderate is very much appealing. Yes, I sometimes like to be on the move. I was, most of the time at school, but at the end of the day, I would always look for that quiet place to come back to.
It explains why even if I live in KL, the high life is not my life. I'm not the life of the party. I love spending time with my friends, but going all wild, no way. I hate crowded places a s well. I don't feel at home in KL, except for my house, which is, by the way, in the suburbs. To me, KL is just a loud, hectic, LEPAK-ing place. A place for people with money to splurge, splurge, splurge. It feels so loud yet so empty. I might work in KL, but when it comes to home, I think of quiet places. Secluded, simple. It does not necessarily need lavish furnishings with million-dollar-worth paintings on the wall with all those high-tech gizmos that I mention earlier, just a simple home would do. Heck, home-cooked meals taste better than posh stuff anyway. Even if they taste just as good, I find it more satisfying in a 'successful' home-cooked meal.
Don't shoot me if I can't show you directions in KL.
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire
"
Know that song?
haha.okay, so I've been thinking.
When I was little, I used to have an ambition that I'd be filthy rich and live the luxurious lifestyle like a movie star, although I might not be one. You know, have a mansion with a swimming pool and maids. A big wide-screen TV and karaoke set, high-tech gadgets, a roomful of clothes and shoes, and all the money in the world to buy anything I want, and I can spend it or give it to anyone non-chalantly because my money reserve is so bottomless, kind of like you know, the Scrooge duck in the Mickey Mouse shows.
Then, I started writng stories, and I thought if I wrote a best-seller, I'd get to that dream. well, look at me now. The only thing I'm writing now is my blog, and after this, probably thesises and research papers and academic writing.
Then, later on, my billionaire dream kind of wore away. The realistic me just thought, no way.
Then I thought about getting rich so that I don't have any debts and I could send my kids without need of scholarship for overseas education. You see, if you have your own money, it'd be a lot easier because you can choose whatever program you'd like to pursue instead of just accepting whatever options the government gives you. You can choose to apply to any university you want. There's no risk of having to pay back the scholarship money if you don't do well. Then, there's no reason to worry about getting a scholarship or not. But then again,, I'll have to be FILTHY RICH to be able to do this. Like, having a Datukship or something.
Getting rich seems like a lot of hard work for a commoner like me. Some people have it easy, being born into the family of a business mogul. Not to say that being rich is not possible, or unattainable, it is, with a lot of hard work and opportunistic attitude.
Of course, if I wanted to get rich the easy way, I could just dabble in business, or play it dirty with politics, or something like that. But no, I don't have the guts for that kind of thing. I can push myself to soldier on in pursuing something (although I might be doing it with a LOT of complaining, but I do it, nonetheless), but I don't exactly have that ruthlessness for politics nor business.
Not to say that I don't set high goals for myself. I do, but somehow, deep down inside, I know that being 'homey' and moderate is very much appealing. Yes, I sometimes like to be on the move. I was, most of the time at school, but at the end of the day, I would always look for that quiet place to come back to.
It explains why even if I live in KL, the high life is not my life. I'm not the life of the party. I love spending time with my friends, but going all wild, no way. I hate crowded places a s well. I don't feel at home in KL, except for my house, which is, by the way, in the suburbs. To me, KL is just a loud, hectic, LEPAK-ing place. A place for people with money to splurge, splurge, splurge. It feels so loud yet so empty. I might work in KL, but when it comes to home, I think of quiet places. Secluded, simple. It does not necessarily need lavish furnishings with million-dollar-worth paintings on the wall with all those high-tech gizmos that I mention earlier, just a simple home would do. Heck, home-cooked meals taste better than posh stuff anyway. Even if they taste just as good, I find it more satisfying in a 'successful' home-cooked meal.
Don't shoot me if I can't show you directions in KL.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Ignore The Wolverine Picture
hahaha. it has nothing to do whatsoever with what I have to post, but yeah, I just watched X-Men Origins and Hugh Jackman is so appealing. hahahaha
Anyway, just a random one here. I have yet to start college, but it's in 19 days away, and I'm not even 40% done with the preparations. Up till now before college, most of my school friends are now in Uni, and out of sheer boredom sometimes, I still ring them up, like I still can't let go of it, while some, like Syakir, so easily and effortlessly sever the ties, and cease to contact anyone.
There are many aspects to my fear of the unknown, and to elaborate one by one, well, it's going to be a long one, and like I said before, everybody has a bit of Asperger's in them.
I initially wanted to post some random memory I had about school, but suddenly I just forgot, which explains why my Down Memory Lane suddenly went dry of ideas, and stopped at 13. Well, actually I have a lot planned, but when it came to writing it down, there wasn't flair, and something was missing and I consider it shoddy work, so I don't post it altogether, notice that some of them actually sound report-ish?
Yes, I know, I'm heading for academic writing instead of creative writing now.
Anyway, Jaja. I miss our secret handshake.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I Am Reminded Once Again Of How Much I Hate Stalkers
nah, don't get me wrong. Okay, I was a feminist, I guess now I'm more liberal on the gender thing, but I still believe in femalae empowerment. self-empowerment. Sometimes, it's not about fighting for equal rights, but somehow, I think women should discover more of their self-worth rather than let men take advantage of them and exploit them. That should be the true feminist spirit. In certain countries, yeah, I think women are still being sidelined and not treated with respect, but for other countries that actually acknowledge women and give them equal rights, there's nothing more to press on about. At least women now are given wider education and work opportunites, even in some countries, leadership positions. The only thing left here to work on is their sense of SELF-WORTH. Female empowerment is not just about some legislation that acknowledges women, but it's about being conscious about your own value as an individual. Probably by then, more women would love themselves more and think twice about "giving it all" to the men. You get my drift. Wait. I'm suppose to be writing a review, now I've strayed all the way to feminism? hahaha.
Tertawalah, kerana seluruh dunia akan tertawa bersamamu. Jangan bersedih, kerana kamu bersedih sendirian
Positif sekali tajuk blog post kali ini ya?
Julung-julung kalinya saya cuba menulis dalam Bahasa Kebangsaan yang tertib. Selalunya saya menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris yang bersifat slanga.
Ungkapan itu, mungkin tidak setepat mana seperti yang tertulis dalam buku yang dipetik ayat tersebut, tetapi, lebih kurang samalah maksudnya.
Nyata saya tidak dapat memberikan ulasan terperinci dari segi lenggok dan komponen sasteranya kerana dari dulu sampai sekarang, saya agak buta sastera Melayu. Walau bagaimanapun, saya masih dapat berkongsi pendapat mengenai buah fikiran yang ingin disampaikan dan jalan ceritanya.
Buku pertama ialah Laskar Pelangi. Buku ini, setakat ini yang paling tebal dan mengisahkan perihal zaman kanak-kanak penulis. Rasanya sinopsisnya boleh dibaca dari sumber internet lain. Mengenai buku pertama ini, bagi saya, pacing (apa ya istilahnya dalam Bahasa Melayu?) ceritanya agak lambat, dan penerangannya sarat dengan nama saintifik tumbuh-tumbuhan dan istilah-istilah sains. (Mungkinkah kerana sudah lebih enam bulan bercuti otakku sudah sedikit lembab menerima lambakan maklumat? Oh, tidak. Nampaknya perlu 'dipanaskan' semula.)Ya, jika meneliti glosarinya memang banyak ilmu yang boleh didapati, terutamanya ilmu Biologi.
Saya mengambil masa paling lama untuk menghabiskan buku Laskar Pelangi. Banyak idea mengenai ekonomi dan sosial tempatan (bagi latar cerita tersebutlah, iaitu di Belitong, Indonesia) yang jelas ditampilkan dalam bentuk satira dan sarcasm mirip-mirip The White Tiger karya Aravind Adiga. Terdapat juga bahagian-bahagian menyentuh perasaan yang bertemakan potensi yang tidak tercapai. Secara keseluruhannya, ada bahagian yang 'efektif', dan ada bahagian yang sedikit membosankan. Beberapa analogi yang menarik dengan pemilihan kata-kata yang berkesan. Pada amatan saya, banyak hiperbola dan personifikasi. (ceh. masih ingatkah saya akan intipati kelas KOMSAS Cikgu Paridah?) Dari segi latar, walaupun saya bukanlah berasal dari kampung, tetapi 'terasa'lah juga nostalgia suasana kampung yang ingin dibangkitkan.Buku kedua ialah Sang Pemimpi. Buku ini yang paling nipis, dan setakat ini yang paling menghiburkan kerana pacing yang lebih pantas dan babak-babak humor.
Buku ketiga ialah Edensor. Buku ini menceritakan mengenai pengembaraan penulis sebagai anak dagang. Latarnya berbeza daripada kedua buku sebelumnya kerana latarnya di Eropah. Kagum sungguh dibuatnya dengan ketabahan dan 'kesetiaan' watak Si Ikal dan Arai.
Ketiga-tiga buku ini saling bersinambungan antara satu sama lain. Cerita ini berdasarkan kisah sebenar penulis. Memang disarankan sebagai bahan motivasi yang cukup efektif untuk membakar semangat untuk belajar. (sungguh bersesuaian sekali memandangkan saya sendiri juga bakal sambung belajar tidak lama lagi. Moga-moga semangat itu terus berkobar!) Kini setelah habis membaca ketiga-tiga buku tersebut. Teringin pula membaca buku keempatnya, Maryamah Karpov sebagai peneman malam-malam yang sunyi sebelum tidur. haha.
*My God, my BM sucks.*
Friday, June 18, 2010
To Do
1. Medical Check-up. Check. Done. 21st collect report.
2. Fill in forms:
JPA:
> the ones in the yellow booklet (3, excluding 2 medical forms, + 2 surat terima biasiswa)
> 3 Perjanjian
> aku janji
Taylor's College: application form (passport photo, certified copy of IC, SPM results, MQA transcript)
3. mati setem (3)
4. open CIMB account. (make a copy of penyata akaun bank to be submitted during registration).
5. photostat offer letter (several copies. definitely certified ones for PLKN, another one for Taylor's).
6. start buying stationary, toiletries, log books
2. Fill in forms:
JPA:
> the ones in the yellow booklet (3, excluding 2 medical forms, + 2 surat terima biasiswa)
> 3 Perjanjian
> aku janji
Taylor's College: application form (passport photo, certified copy of IC, SPM results, MQA transcript)
3. mati setem (3)
4. open CIMB account. (make a copy of penyata akaun bank to be submitted during registration).
5. photostat offer letter (several copies. definitely certified ones for PLKN, another one for Taylor's).
6. start buying stationary, toiletries, log books
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
more stuff from FB
my status: ICPU= 70% COURSEWORK, 30% final exam. coursework includes: assignments, quizzes, attendance, participation in class and class tests carried out throughout the program. no more playtime.on Sunday
the discussion that ensued:
Nik Siti Hajar Nabilah: better than ausmat and IB dowh kam...:D
Mat Kamil Awang: Just like american program
Kamilah Kamil: hajar: why? ausmat payah ke? IB tu memanglah. ada thesis, fieldwork semua tu kan.kena belajar BM lagi.
Muhammad Thaqif: ausmat 50:50.adil.haha.
Kamilah Kamil: ohohh..gitu.kena pandai balance. tapi final exam ICPU pun kena score 80+. so lepas ni kena ubah sikap daripada SBP, no more tidur dalam kelas, no more buat kerja last minute..astagha
Mat Kamil Awang: Make sure you secure maximum marks for coursework then the final will be less stressfull. Normally the course will have 1 or 2 exams which can carry 20% + 20%, final carries 30%. Assignment can be between 15-20%, quizzes qbout 5-10%. Attendance & participation normally free 5% marks. But most of the time attendance and participation do not carry any marks.
Hairul Azman: almost the same la dgn kt UTP.but the difference is in UTP,the marks 4 coursework is 60% n final test is 40%.
Mr.Mat Kamil Awang:be careful dgn attendance because in UTP,attendance is very important.students with attendance less than 90% in any subject will be barred from taking final exam.Who knows maybe taylor pun implement the same thing.So kam,jangan ponteng kelas.haha
Mat Kamil Awang: Malaysian system is a hybrid between US system and UK system. American system, it is up to you to attend or not the class. In one of the class, digital electronics design, I only went to class 3 times. First day of class to know how the class to be graded, mid term exam, and final exam. I submitted my assigments and papers thru my classmates. I got A for that class.
Hairul Azman: oo...I see.So you're saying that UTP uses other system and not Malaysian system??
Mat Kamil Awang: Malaysian system is hybrid system. There is some flexibility similar to US but not as flexible as US. There is some rigidity similar to UK but not as rigid as in UK. For example, in UK final exam can carry 70-60% of the total grade. But in US system it is a continuous evaluation where the final exam can be as low as 20%. The rest of the marks can ... See Morecome from other types of evaluation. In Malaysia, in order to reduce the number of students not attending class, even attendance is considered for giving marks. In Malaysia, students are reluctant to participate in class therefore participation is given marks. In US the system is so flexible that an undergraduate can even the PhD level courses. You can even have double majors, minor etc.
Mat Kamil Awang: Eventhough I am one of the external examiners for UTP department of electrical engineering for final year projects, I do not know in detail about the marking system. What I wrote is the general situation in Malaysia higher learning institution.
Nik Siti Hajar Nabilah: kam = takif da jwab tuu 50-50..
hairul = it's a good thing UTP uses that kind of system kn.. xde lar dalam kelas tinggal 2,3 kerat je..:D
Hairul Azman: oo.Just a bit different.Malaysian student mmg macam 2.I understand about the system butyou lost me at double majors,minors.what do you mean by double majors,minor?
Mat Kamil Awang: One of the reason why Kamilah is interested in US education is due to its flexibility. She can do a double major such as in Biomedical Engineering and Computer Science and minor in Math for example. Or even a double degrees within 4 years of study. This cannot be done in Malaysia or UK. In Canada it is still possible to do double major.
Mat Kamil Awang: Double major means that on top of you main major you take additional course to get another major. Let takes my case, to graduate with bachelor of science in electrical engineering i needed 132 credits. In order to have a second major in mathematics I needed to take additional 16 credits in mathematics so I got Mathematics as my second major. My ... See Morefirst major was electrical engineering. For my minor in economics, i took 12 credits of economics classes to qualify for that. I did this without any aditional credits since in US system in order o graduate you need have minimum of 6 credits of humanities or social science subjects and another 12 in either one. So I took 6 credits of japanese for humanities and 12 credits of economics. I graduated with 150 credits instead of 132 credits in 4 years.
Hairul Azman: So that's what you mean dgn minor and major 2.ok2.why this cannot be done in Malaysia??In UTP,we can take 1 major and more than 1 minor,depends on our capability.For example,I'm currently doing mechanical engineering.In the final year,maybe I'l take engineering design as my major and I can take minor in BIS or maybe ICT.That's what they told me about this.
Mat Kamil Awang: The definition of major is different. In US, if your degree is BSc in Mechanical Engineering, then your major is Mechanical Engineering, your specialization/option/concentration can be Aerospace Engineering, Internal Combustion Engine, Biomedical, Environmental, HVAC Systems, or Sustainable Engineering. The specialization is done by taking a group ... See Moreof course related to the area of concentration. So it is still under major of "mechanical engineering". In US a double major means you take another major for example outside of Mechanical Engineering such as Computer Science, Mathematics. In US what you term os major is actually a concentration/option/specialization.
In my case, my BSc in Electrical Engineering, so major was Electrical Engineering, my option was Communication (I put communication but actual fact I took all the course offered under signal processing but signal processing was not an option at the time). But my second major was in Mathematics. Minor Economics.
For BSc in Electrical Engineering at my university now they have 3 options:
BSEE (Electrical option), BSEE (Audio option), BSEE (Wireless option)
Double degree program now is BSEE with BScBiomedical Engineering.
Double major can be BSEE electrical & Math or Computer Science
Minor can be with any areas.
Hairul Azman: hmm......now I understand.In Malaysia particularly UTP,we can take only one major and minors.But in us,they can take more than 1 major and minors.Am I correct??that's the difference??
Mat Kamil Awang: If you want to know more about the differences between US system and UTP system, go and talk to Prof. Abd Rashid Abd Aziz at Mechanical Engineering Department. Tell him I kirim salam.
Hairul Azman: haha.Insyaallah I will.thanks for the explaination.haha.mungkin berguna nanti.
Mat Kamil Awang: Hairul > if you are planning to do double major or minor, better start planning now. go an talk to Prof. Rashid. He is a friend of mine. We are studying together in Miami, he was doing ME and I was doing EE. He continued until Phd there but i left after my masters.
Kamilah Kamil: papa: how did you decide on what course you wanted to take for the double major(the other major) and minor?
in terms of credit hours, how is the double major different from double degree? mesti double degree kena put in more effort than double major kan. ada some time ago, my senior, kak zahra nak buat double degree for economics and apa entah satu lagi, in australia.she said better buat double degree.
Mat Kamil Awang: how to decide on dobule major?
1. depends on what combination is allowed by the university
2. your interest
3. which combination can be done with least effort
4. how can the combination strengthen your degree for example electrical & math, electrical & computer science. industrial engineering & business. ... See More
In certain univerisities you cannot do double major from 2 different colleges for example electrical and math since electrical from college/school of engineering and math from college/school or art&science.
double degree requires you satisfy requirements for both degrees and normally the degrees are from 2 different schools/colleges. You will receive 2 scrolls for double degrees whereas for double majors you only receive 1 scroll. Normally you have to declare earlier that you are taking double degrees. double degrees in US requires 5 years of studies.
okay, from here we know that in Malaysia, there has yet to offer doble degree options, the Malaysian system is not that flexible, but is less rigid compared to UK.
US system is so flexible you can do a double degree, or double major. For you to take it up, it entirely depends on what the university offers and your interest.
surely, there is so much to learn! so much more hardwork. well, all part of mentally preparing myself for this.
so now, off for more research on undergraduate courses options.
for Biomedical Engineering, I was thinking of specializing in medical imaging. well, let's see how I prove myself, of what I am capable of, then.
the discussion that ensued:
Nik Siti Hajar Nabilah: better than ausmat and IB dowh kam...:D
Mat Kamil Awang: Just like american program
Kamilah Kamil: hajar: why? ausmat payah ke? IB tu memanglah. ada thesis, fieldwork semua tu kan.kena belajar BM lagi.
Muhammad Thaqif: ausmat 50:50.adil.haha.
Kamilah Kamil: ohohh..gitu.kena pandai balance. tapi final exam ICPU pun kena score 80+. so lepas ni kena ubah sikap daripada SBP, no more tidur dalam kelas, no more buat kerja last minute..astagha
Mat Kamil Awang: Make sure you secure maximum marks for coursework then the final will be less stressfull. Normally the course will have 1 or 2 exams which can carry 20% + 20%, final carries 30%. Assignment can be between 15-20%, quizzes qbout 5-10%. Attendance & participation normally free 5% marks. But most of the time attendance and participation do not carry any marks.
Hairul Azman: almost the same la dgn kt UTP.but the difference is in UTP,the marks 4 coursework is 60% n final test is 40%.
Mr.Mat Kamil Awang:be careful dgn attendance because in UTP,attendance is very important.students with attendance less than 90% in any subject will be barred from taking final exam.Who knows maybe taylor pun implement the same thing.So kam,jangan ponteng kelas.haha
Mat Kamil Awang: Malaysian system is a hybrid between US system and UK system. American system, it is up to you to attend or not the class. In one of the class, digital electronics design, I only went to class 3 times. First day of class to know how the class to be graded, mid term exam, and final exam. I submitted my assigments and papers thru my classmates. I got A for that class.
Hairul Azman: oo...I see.So you're saying that UTP uses other system and not Malaysian system??
Mat Kamil Awang: Malaysian system is hybrid system. There is some flexibility similar to US but not as flexible as US. There is some rigidity similar to UK but not as rigid as in UK. For example, in UK final exam can carry 70-60% of the total grade. But in US system it is a continuous evaluation where the final exam can be as low as 20%. The rest of the marks can ... See Morecome from other types of evaluation. In Malaysia, in order to reduce the number of students not attending class, even attendance is considered for giving marks. In Malaysia, students are reluctant to participate in class therefore participation is given marks. In US the system is so flexible that an undergraduate can even the PhD level courses. You can even have double majors, minor etc.
Mat Kamil Awang: Eventhough I am one of the external examiners for UTP department of electrical engineering for final year projects, I do not know in detail about the marking system. What I wrote is the general situation in Malaysia higher learning institution.
Nik Siti Hajar Nabilah: kam = takif da jwab tuu 50-50..
hairul = it's a good thing UTP uses that kind of system kn.. xde lar dalam kelas tinggal 2,3 kerat je..:D
Hairul Azman: oo.Just a bit different.Malaysian student mmg macam 2.I understand about the system butyou lost me at double majors,minors.what do you mean by double majors,minor?
Mat Kamil Awang: One of the reason why Kamilah is interested in US education is due to its flexibility. She can do a double major such as in Biomedical Engineering and Computer Science and minor in Math for example. Or even a double degrees within 4 years of study. This cannot be done in Malaysia or UK. In Canada it is still possible to do double major.
Mat Kamil Awang: Double major means that on top of you main major you take additional course to get another major. Let takes my case, to graduate with bachelor of science in electrical engineering i needed 132 credits. In order to have a second major in mathematics I needed to take additional 16 credits in mathematics so I got Mathematics as my second major. My ... See Morefirst major was electrical engineering. For my minor in economics, i took 12 credits of economics classes to qualify for that. I did this without any aditional credits since in US system in order o graduate you need have minimum of 6 credits of humanities or social science subjects and another 12 in either one. So I took 6 credits of japanese for humanities and 12 credits of economics. I graduated with 150 credits instead of 132 credits in 4 years.
Hairul Azman: So that's what you mean dgn minor and major 2.ok2.why this cannot be done in Malaysia??In UTP,we can take 1 major and more than 1 minor,depends on our capability.For example,I'm currently doing mechanical engineering.In the final year,maybe I'l take engineering design as my major and I can take minor in BIS or maybe ICT.That's what they told me about this.
Mat Kamil Awang: The definition of major is different. In US, if your degree is BSc in Mechanical Engineering, then your major is Mechanical Engineering, your specialization/option/concentration can be Aerospace Engineering, Internal Combustion Engine, Biomedical, Environmental, HVAC Systems, or Sustainable Engineering. The specialization is done by taking a group ... See Moreof course related to the area of concentration. So it is still under major of "mechanical engineering". In US a double major means you take another major for example outside of Mechanical Engineering such as Computer Science, Mathematics. In US what you term os major is actually a concentration/option/specialization.
In my case, my BSc in Electrical Engineering, so major was Electrical Engineering, my option was Communication (I put communication but actual fact I took all the course offered under signal processing but signal processing was not an option at the time). But my second major was in Mathematics. Minor Economics.
For BSc in Electrical Engineering at my university now they have 3 options:
BSEE (Electrical option), BSEE (Audio option), BSEE (Wireless option)
Double degree program now is BSEE with BScBiomedical Engineering.
Double major can be BSEE electrical & Math or Computer Science
Minor can be with any areas.
Hairul Azman: hmm......now I understand.In Malaysia particularly UTP,we can take only one major and minors.But in us,they can take more than 1 major and minors.Am I correct??that's the difference??
Mat Kamil Awang: If you want to know more about the differences between US system and UTP system, go and talk to Prof. Abd Rashid Abd Aziz at Mechanical Engineering Department. Tell him I kirim salam.
Hairul Azman: haha.Insyaallah I will.thanks for the explaination.haha.mungkin berguna nanti.
Mat Kamil Awang: Hairul > if you are planning to do double major or minor, better start planning now. go an talk to Prof. Rashid. He is a friend of mine. We are studying together in Miami, he was doing ME and I was doing EE. He continued until Phd there but i left after my masters.
Kamilah Kamil: papa: how did you decide on what course you wanted to take for the double major(the other major) and minor?
in terms of credit hours, how is the double major different from double degree? mesti double degree kena put in more effort than double major kan. ada some time ago, my senior, kak zahra nak buat double degree for economics and apa entah satu lagi, in australia.she said better buat double degree.
Mat Kamil Awang: how to decide on dobule major?
1. depends on what combination is allowed by the university
2. your interest
3. which combination can be done with least effort
4. how can the combination strengthen your degree for example electrical & math, electrical & computer science. industrial engineering & business. ... See More
In certain univerisities you cannot do double major from 2 different colleges for example electrical and math since electrical from college/school of engineering and math from college/school or art&science.
double degree requires you satisfy requirements for both degrees and normally the degrees are from 2 different schools/colleges. You will receive 2 scrolls for double degrees whereas for double majors you only receive 1 scroll. Normally you have to declare earlier that you are taking double degrees. double degrees in US requires 5 years of studies.
okay, from here we know that in Malaysia, there has yet to offer doble degree options, the Malaysian system is not that flexible, but is less rigid compared to UK.
US system is so flexible you can do a double degree, or double major. For you to take it up, it entirely depends on what the university offers and your interest.
surely, there is so much to learn! so much more hardwork. well, all part of mentally preparing myself for this.
so now, off for more research on undergraduate courses options.
for Biomedical Engineering, I was thinking of specializing in medical imaging. well, let's see how I prove myself, of what I am capable of, then.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Playtime's Over, Kam
Program: International Canadian Pre-University (ICPU)
Basically, by the end of the program you obtain an Ontario Secondary School Diploma (Grade 12)
Duration: 1 year.
2 semesters, each comprising 20 weeks of classes and examinations. Students complete 3 credit subjects each semester. This enables students to have a greater control of their progress throughout the course.
Syllabus:
MQA Subjects: Malaysian students are required to study MQA compulsory subjects (Malaysian Studies and Moral Education/Islamic Studies) in the first semester. They are also required to take Bahasa Kebangsaan A in the second semester if they do not have a credit in Bahasa Melayu at SPM level.
Timetable Classes are from 8.00am/ 9.15am to 4.45pm everyday. Students will be given double
periods (75 minutes X 2) for each subject.
Second semester: Students will take FOUR (4) Pre–U subjects in the second semester.
Engineering:
sekurang-kurangnya setiap satu kena score 80%
English ENG4U
This course emphasises consolidation of literacy, critical thinking and communication skills. Students will analyse a range of challenging texts from various time periods, countries and cultures; write analytical and argumentative essays and a major paper for an independent literary research project; and apply key concepts to analyse media works. An important focus will be on understanding academic language and using it coherently and confidently in discussion and argument.
Physics SPH4U
The course enables students to deepen their understanding of physics concepts and theories. Students will continue their exploration of energy transformations and the forces that affect motion, and will investigate electrical, gravitational, and magnetic fields and electromagnetic radiation. Students will also explore the wave nature of light, quantum mechanics, and special relativity. They will further develop their scientific investigation skills, learning, for example, how to analyse, qualitatively and quantitatively, data related to a variety of physics concepts and principles. Students will also consider the impact of technological applications of physics on society and the environment.
Chemistry SCH4U
This course enables students to deepen their understanding of chemistry through the study of organic chemistry, the structure and properties of matter, energy changes and rates of reaction, equilibrium in chemical systems, and electrochemistry. Students will further develop problem-solving and investigation skills as they investigate chemical processes, and will refine their ability to communicate scientific information. Emphasis will be placed on the importance of chemistry in everyday life and on evaluating the impact of chemical technology on the environment.
Advanced Functions MHF4U
This course extends students' experience with functions. Students will investigate the properties of polynomial, rational, logarithmic, and trigonometric functions; develop techniques for combining functions; broaden their understanding of rates of change; and develop facility in applying these concepts and skills. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended both for students taking the Calculus and Vectors course as a prerequisite for a university programme and for those wishing to consolidate their understanding of mathematics before proceeding to any one of a variety of university programmes.
Calculus and Vectors MCV4U
This course builds on students' previous experience with functions and their developing understanding of rates of change. Students will solve problems involving geometric and algebraic representations of vectors and representations of lines and planes in three-dimensional space; broaden their understanding of rates of change to include the derivatives of polynomial, sinusoidal, exponential, rational, and radical functions; and apply these concepts and skills to the modeling of real-world relationships. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended for students who choose to pursue careers in fields such as science, engineering, economics, and some areas of business, including those students who will be required to take a university-level calculus, linear algebra, or physics course.
Prerequisite: The new Advanced Functions course (MHF4U) must be taken prior to or concurrently with Calculus and Vectors (MCV4U).
Computer Science ICS4U
This course enables students to further develop knowledge and skills in computer science. Students will use modular design principles to create complex and fully documented programmes, according to industry standards. Student teams will manage a large software development project, from planning through to project review. Students will also analyse algorithms for effectiveness. They will investigate ethical issues in computing and further explore environmental issues, emerging technologies, areas of research in computer science, and careers in the field.
oh! oh! oh! and compulsory 10-hour community service!!
Assessment:
A student’s final grade is based on coursework (70%) and a final examination (30%). Coursework is carried out throughout the program and includes assignments, quizzes, attendance, participation in class and class tests.
English Proficiency Requirements: TOEFL
a score of at least 550 on the paper-based, 213 on the computer-based or an overall 80 on the internet-based Test of English as a Foreign Language with a score of 19 or higher on Reading and Listening and 18 or higher on Speaking and Writing;
sourced from: Taylor's College website, University of Saskatchewan requirements, and lots of others
oh,,, additional comment from Facebook, my dad said:
Make sure you secure maximum marks for coursework then the final will be less stressfull. Normally the course will have 1 or 2 exams which can carry 20% + 20%, final carries 30%. Assignment can be between 15-20%, quizzes qbout 5-10%. Attendance & participation normally free 5% marks. But most of the time attendance and participation do not carry any marks.
hurhhhh..can't wait to start studying. I'd love to see books on the aforementioned subjects just to give me an idea of what's to come. At school we always take home the following year's textbooks, so I can look at it right away. Now, it's like venturing into the unknown. Probably I'll start by revisng my Form Five.
no more playtime.
Basically, by the end of the program you obtain an Ontario Secondary School Diploma (Grade 12)
Duration: 1 year.
2 semesters, each comprising 20 weeks of classes and examinations. Students complete 3 credit subjects each semester. This enables students to have a greater control of their progress throughout the course.
Syllabus:
MQA Subjects: Malaysian students are required to study MQA compulsory subjects (Malaysian Studies and Moral Education/Islamic Studies) in the first semester. They are also required to take Bahasa Kebangsaan A in the second semester if they do not have a credit in Bahasa Melayu at SPM level.
Timetable Classes are from 8.00am/ 9.15am to 4.45pm everyday. Students will be given double
periods (75 minutes X 2) for each subject.
Second semester: Students will take FOUR (4) Pre–U subjects in the second semester.
Engineering:
- English 4U
- Physics
- Chemistry
- Advanced Functions
- Calculus and Vector
- (elective subject. recommended: Computer Science)
sekurang-kurangnya setiap satu kena score 80%
English ENG4U
This course emphasises consolidation of literacy, critical thinking and communication skills. Students will analyse a range of challenging texts from various time periods, countries and cultures; write analytical and argumentative essays and a major paper for an independent literary research project; and apply key concepts to analyse media works. An important focus will be on understanding academic language and using it coherently and confidently in discussion and argument.
Physics SPH4U
The course enables students to deepen their understanding of physics concepts and theories. Students will continue their exploration of energy transformations and the forces that affect motion, and will investigate electrical, gravitational, and magnetic fields and electromagnetic radiation. Students will also explore the wave nature of light, quantum mechanics, and special relativity. They will further develop their scientific investigation skills, learning, for example, how to analyse, qualitatively and quantitatively, data related to a variety of physics concepts and principles. Students will also consider the impact of technological applications of physics on society and the environment.
Chemistry SCH4U
This course enables students to deepen their understanding of chemistry through the study of organic chemistry, the structure and properties of matter, energy changes and rates of reaction, equilibrium in chemical systems, and electrochemistry. Students will further develop problem-solving and investigation skills as they investigate chemical processes, and will refine their ability to communicate scientific information. Emphasis will be placed on the importance of chemistry in everyday life and on evaluating the impact of chemical technology on the environment.
Advanced Functions MHF4U
This course extends students' experience with functions. Students will investigate the properties of polynomial, rational, logarithmic, and trigonometric functions; develop techniques for combining functions; broaden their understanding of rates of change; and develop facility in applying these concepts and skills. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended both for students taking the Calculus and Vectors course as a prerequisite for a university programme and for those wishing to consolidate their understanding of mathematics before proceeding to any one of a variety of university programmes.
Calculus and Vectors MCV4U
This course builds on students' previous experience with functions and their developing understanding of rates of change. Students will solve problems involving geometric and algebraic representations of vectors and representations of lines and planes in three-dimensional space; broaden their understanding of rates of change to include the derivatives of polynomial, sinusoidal, exponential, rational, and radical functions; and apply these concepts and skills to the modeling of real-world relationships. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended for students who choose to pursue careers in fields such as science, engineering, economics, and some areas of business, including those students who will be required to take a university-level calculus, linear algebra, or physics course.
Prerequisite: The new Advanced Functions course (MHF4U) must be taken prior to or concurrently with Calculus and Vectors (MCV4U).
Computer Science ICS4U
This course enables students to further develop knowledge and skills in computer science. Students will use modular design principles to create complex and fully documented programmes, according to industry standards. Student teams will manage a large software development project, from planning through to project review. Students will also analyse algorithms for effectiveness. They will investigate ethical issues in computing and further explore environmental issues, emerging technologies, areas of research in computer science, and careers in the field.
oh! oh! oh! and compulsory 10-hour community service!!
Assessment:
A student’s final grade is based on coursework (70%) and a final examination (30%). Coursework is carried out throughout the program and includes assignments, quizzes, attendance, participation in class and class tests.
English Proficiency Requirements: TOEFL
a score of at least 550 on the paper-based, 213 on the computer-based or an overall 80 on the internet-based Test of English as a Foreign Language with a score of 19 or higher on Reading and Listening and 18 or higher on Speaking and Writing;
sourced from: Taylor's College website, University of Saskatchewan requirements, and lots of others
oh,,, additional comment from Facebook, my dad said:
Make sure you secure maximum marks for coursework then the final will be less stressfull. Normally the course will have 1 or 2 exams which can carry 20% + 20%, final carries 30%. Assignment can be between 15-20%, quizzes qbout 5-10%. Attendance & participation normally free 5% marks. But most of the time attendance and participation do not carry any marks.
hurhhhh..can't wait to start studying. I'd love to see books on the aforementioned subjects just to give me an idea of what's to come. At school we always take home the following year's textbooks, so I can look at it right away. Now, it's like venturing into the unknown. Probably I'll start by revisng my Form Five.
no more playtime.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Confession
I grew up in KL, but I don't know the friggin' way around it. Put me in the middle of KL, or tell me to find my way to certain places, and I'll get lost for sure.
I've never taken the bus in KL, so I think I know Kelantan bus routes better.
I'm so paranoid of crowds, getting lost, getting kidnapped in a public transport.
I've only been to Midvalley once. It's so big I get lost, I don't have proper bearings there. Well, it takes time even for me to get my bearings right. The parking lots are creepy.
Thank God some interviews were conducted at KL Sentral area, if not, I wouldn't even know what's there or how to take an LRT myself. It's quite simple actually.
I've never been to The Curve, Pavillion, Sunway Pyramid. No reason to go there either. They're all the same to me. I've been to Times Square whatnot, and they're just lepak places. Maybe it's because I haven't been there yet that I say so, once I've actually been there...tapi kan, the first time I went to Midvalley with my friends pun, I still don't get the hype about it.
Sue me I tak banyak berjalan in KL, but for what? If I actually get around to berjalan a lot, I bet I'd squander my money away. Even at Carrefour, I've spent on RM 30 below clothes and shoes almost everytime I go there. urhhhh..bad spending habits. Now I have to cure this obsession for colorful clothes. Having jellybeans as my blog background isn't helping, but I'd rather not change it.
Living five years in Kelantan, although I am NOT a Kelantanese, I was not born there, yes, I don't eat budu unless it's in nasi kerabu, I feel more at home in Kelantan. Probably because they have simpler routes, and I know my way around KB, and everything is so laidback there. tak ada apa sangat except the simple pleasures in life, good food, ceh. (KL has lots of food, spoiled for choice, but the pricing la pulak, and you have to know which are the good places, otherwise macam tak happy je with your choice and banyak pulak duit habis.of course, one thing about Kelantan is not many choices of books. Kinokuniya has everything!) No hang out places except the one and only KB Mall. and the Kelantanese dialect is sooo interesting, and if you speak it among the Kelantanese, you kind of 'clicked' with them. Entah, maybe I'm just missing my school peeps.
Sometimes, when I introduce myself to people, I mention my school name and they ask where it is and I'd said Kelantan, it seems a lot easier for me to pretend to be a Kelantanese than to have explain to them that I actually live in KL. har har. Once during The Star Public Speaking competition, I was one of only two Malay girls who showed up and I was the only one there showing up in traditional clothing (kebaya), and I introduced myself to other people that I was a Kelantanese. And they (especially the Chinese) said, " Wow, I've never been there. What's it like? You people actually speak good English." bakpo? ingat oghe klate tok biso kecek oghe putih ko? (bekwoh= big word, drebar= driver, prebet= private, kona= corner..just to name a few Kelantanese vocab) hahhahaha
and thanks to Fikri, baru tahu 'kacang mior' tu ladies fingers.
kalau Canada macam Kelantan kan best (this is a funny statement). I would like to try lobster *drools*
nota kaki: "darat orang KL ni."
I've never taken the bus in KL, so I think I know Kelantan bus routes better.
I'm so paranoid of crowds, getting lost, getting kidnapped in a public transport.
I've only been to Midvalley once. It's so big I get lost, I don't have proper bearings there. Well, it takes time even for me to get my bearings right. The parking lots are creepy.
Thank God some interviews were conducted at KL Sentral area, if not, I wouldn't even know what's there or how to take an LRT myself. It's quite simple actually.
I've never been to The Curve, Pavillion, Sunway Pyramid. No reason to go there either. They're all the same to me. I've been to Times Square whatnot, and they're just lepak places. Maybe it's because I haven't been there yet that I say so, once I've actually been there...tapi kan, the first time I went to Midvalley with my friends pun, I still don't get the hype about it.
Sue me I tak banyak berjalan in KL, but for what? If I actually get around to berjalan a lot, I bet I'd squander my money away. Even at Carrefour, I've spent on RM 30 below clothes and shoes almost everytime I go there. urhhhh..bad spending habits. Now I have to cure this obsession for colorful clothes. Having jellybeans as my blog background isn't helping, but I'd rather not change it.
Living five years in Kelantan, although I am NOT a Kelantanese, I was not born there, yes, I don't eat budu unless it's in nasi kerabu, I feel more at home in Kelantan. Probably because they have simpler routes, and I know my way around KB, and everything is so laidback there. tak ada apa sangat except the simple pleasures in life, good food, ceh. (KL has lots of food, spoiled for choice, but the pricing la pulak, and you have to know which are the good places, otherwise macam tak happy je with your choice and banyak pulak duit habis.of course, one thing about Kelantan is not many choices of books. Kinokuniya has everything!) No hang out places except the one and only KB Mall. and the Kelantanese dialect is sooo interesting, and if you speak it among the Kelantanese, you kind of 'clicked' with them. Entah, maybe I'm just missing my school peeps.
Sometimes, when I introduce myself to people, I mention my school name and they ask where it is and I'd said Kelantan, it seems a lot easier for me to pretend to be a Kelantanese than to have explain to them that I actually live in KL. har har. Once during The Star Public Speaking competition, I was one of only two Malay girls who showed up and I was the only one there showing up in traditional clothing (kebaya), and I introduced myself to other people that I was a Kelantanese. And they (especially the Chinese) said, " Wow, I've never been there. What's it like? You people actually speak good English." bakpo? ingat oghe klate tok biso kecek oghe putih ko? (bekwoh= big word, drebar= driver, prebet= private, kona= corner..just to name a few Kelantanese vocab) hahhahaha
and thanks to Fikri, baru tahu 'kacang mior' tu ladies fingers.
kalau Canada macam Kelantan kan best (this is a funny statement). I would like to try lobster *drools*
nota kaki: "darat orang KL ni."
hahahhahhahah...this is so DAMN funny
I was blogwalking to Azia Razwa's page, and I found this link. you know like the magmypic just for fun free online photo edits.
and so, I tried it out, this is damn funny.
Hey,
Look at me in 20 years from now!
Make yourself older! See your face in 20 years
hahahah
and so, I tried it out, this is damn funny.
Hey,
Hey, Look at me in 20 years from now!
Make yourself older! See your face in 20 years
hahahah
Friday, June 11, 2010
get busy
Imma check this out:
1. University of Toronto (engineering #1 canada , #5 NAmerica #8 world) – BASc in Computer/ Electrical Engineering (minor Bioengineering)
2. University of British Columbia (#17 world ) no biomedical
3. McGill University (#20 world) - No bachelors for biomedical but offers Masters in biomedical engineering
4. University of Waterloo (#27 world) – BASc in Electrical/Computer with Biomechanics option
5. University of Alberta (#46 world) - BASc in Electrical Eng. with biomedical engineering option... See More
6. University of Calgary (#87 world) – BASc in Biomedical Engineering Specialization
7. McMaster University (#89 world) – BASc in Electrical & Biomedical Engineering
8. Simon Fraser University – BASc in Biomedical Engineering (honors)
nanti nak cari jugak sal Taylor's and ICPU. and also Canada. There must be more than just maple syrup and Avril Lavigne. (of course lah!)
time to get busy.
1. University of Toronto (engineering #1 canada , #5 NAmerica #8 world) – BASc in Computer/ Electrical Engineering (minor Bioengineering)
2. University of British Columbia (#17 world ) no biomedical
3. McGill University (#20 world) - No bachelors for biomedical but offers Masters in biomedical engineering
4. University of Waterloo (#27 world) – BASc in Electrical/Computer with Biomechanics option
5. University of Alberta (#46 world) - BASc in Electrical Eng. with biomedical engineering option... See More
6. University of Calgary (#87 world) – BASc in Biomedical Engineering Specialization
7. McMaster University (#89 world) – BASc in Electrical & Biomedical Engineering
8. Simon Fraser University – BASc in Biomedical Engineering (honors)
nanti nak cari jugak sal Taylor's and ICPU. and also Canada. There must be more than just maple syrup and Avril Lavigne. (of course lah!)
time to get busy.
My Blog Looks So GAYY Now
I love blogger's new toy: the template designer thannggg.. love the jelly beans!
I changed my blog name to Gambar Gajah (ARAHAN: sila teliti gambar rajah gajah di bawah dan jawab soalan-soalan berikutnya) , just a random thought, and it's a funny name, but don't expect me to post pictures of elephants .
okay, just to commemorate the change of name, nah..here's one snagged from the internet..
Gambar Rajah Gajah 1.1
- Berapa kali blog ini sudah bertukar nama?
_________________________________ (5 m)
2. Berapakah umur blog ini?
__________________________________(5 m)
Jumlah: __ / 10 m
hahahaha, lawak..lawak..macam tak ada kerja je aku ni
Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Kuasa
Keputusan Rayuan JPA PILN: Engineering, Canada
International Canadian Pre-University (ICPU) 1 Tahun at Taylor's College, Subang Jaya
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Sorry, but sometimes I just tak sedar diri and it takes a COLLOSAL wake up call for me to come back to my senses.
kadang kala aku bisa terlupa dan lupa diri. Sometimes, our actions leave an impact on other people without us actually aware of it because we don't really know what's on their minds and in their hearts. I need to be reminded once in a while: 1. life is not a bed of roses. 2. other people have feelings too 3. whatever happens, God always has the last say
Sunday, June 06, 2010
blaahhh-haaa-hhahah
Kenapa tajuk post sedemikian rupa? well, aku dalam stage merapu-rapu ni. *that time of the month* perghhh....alasan!
Sebenarnya, itu bunyi Grover the satyr bleating. kononnya.
Baru sahaja melengkapkan koleksi series Percy Jackson. Nyata puas hati dan tamatlah kegilaan Percy Jackson. Nasib baiklah pacing cerita dia agak cepat dan setiap judul tu taklah tebal sangat. Bahasa pun santai. If it were more than 5 books, I'd already be bored by then.
Masuk buku terakhir ini, memang sedikit kebosanan telah dirasai.
Dah boleh agak dah siapa belot siapa, siapa yang nak mengorat siapa, ending macam mana.
Tapi nasib baiklah buku last baru nak bosan, kalau tengah-tengah jalan dah bosan, alamatnya tak sempat habislah baca series dia ni. Out of the five books, I really like the third and fourth book (eihh, kebetulan sama dengan Harry Potter). Daedalus is so cool. haha.
Not much to be said pasal buku ni. As usual, a modest end to a spectacular heroic saga. ceh.
Still, tak ada buku boleh beat ending Bartimaeus Trilogy. Siot best. The ending compensated for everything else the story-telling lacked.
Okay, itu sahaja setakat ini.
Sebenarnya, itu bunyi Grover the satyr bleating. kononnya.
Baru sahaja melengkapkan koleksi series Percy Jackson. Nyata puas hati dan tamatlah kegilaan Percy Jackson. Nasib baiklah pacing cerita dia agak cepat dan setiap judul tu taklah tebal sangat. Bahasa pun santai. If it were more than 5 books, I'd already be bored by then.
Masuk buku terakhir ini, memang sedikit kebosanan telah dirasai.
Dah boleh agak dah siapa belot siapa, siapa yang nak mengorat siapa, ending macam mana.
Tapi nasib baiklah buku last baru nak bosan, kalau tengah-tengah jalan dah bosan, alamatnya tak sempat habislah baca series dia ni. Out of the five books, I really like the third and fourth book (eihh, kebetulan sama dengan Harry Potter). Daedalus is so cool. haha.
Not much to be said pasal buku ni. As usual, a modest end to a spectacular heroic saga. ceh.
Still, tak ada buku boleh beat ending Bartimaeus Trilogy. Siot best. The ending compensated for everything else the story-telling lacked.
Okay, itu sahaja setakat ini.
Saturday, June 05, 2010
TAG dari FIKRI, rakan berontak di sekolah
1.Apa yg bermain difikiran anda sekarang ni??
aku sebenarnya jarang buat tag, melainkan yang "stylo", tapi takpe, demi Fikri, aku buat gak..hahaha..actually lots of other things on my mind, tapi satu benda ni je boleh pinpoint setakat ni
Apakah nama samaran u'all??
nama samaran, not gelaran ek? gelaran tu banyak, (kam, kambing, camel, kamil dsbg nya) tapi nama samaran tak banyak, ok la, nama samaran gue Wonder Woman, muahahahha (koya tahap gaban!)
Berikan 3 orang yg u'all sayang
just because tak tertulis doesnt mean aku tak sayang okay, tapi nak pilih tiga: my mum, my dad and myself.hahaha.kena sayang diri sendiri okay, kalau tak..
Panggilan utk si dia
.... (erhhh..no comment)
Hadiah yg korang impikan dari seseorang yg istimewa
bab-bab hadiah ni macam-macam boleh jadi. tapi setakat ini nak hadiah kebolehan memandu terrer gila. hahaha
Blog mane yg korang suke visit??
erm, banyak le. malas nak list. yang dalam blog list tu semua la. tapi yang kerap update tu yang lebih kerap berkunjung.
2. Adakah anda happy sekarang?
tak ada perasaan
Kenapa anda Happy?
why isn't this question structured like this: "kenapa anda rasa demikian?" ngokngekla ingat semua orang jawab dia happy ke? manatau kebetulan masa tu tengah geram dengan seseorang lepas geram buat tag ni.
Apakah benda yang boleh membuatkan anda happy?
dengar music, makan makanan kat Kelantan, menggatal dengan *tuut*, tengok comedy, ketawa sebab diorang buat lawak lucah..hahahah..macam-macam.
Pernahkah anda menerima tag??
banyak, tapi jarang buat.ikot mood,kadang-kadang tu malas je.
Nyatakan warna yang anda suka.
erm, warna apa ek sekarang ni? warna BLUE kot (chup! jangan fikir pelik! hal ini demikian sebab kemponan ngan baju-T biru kat Carrefour tu ye)
Beritahu 5 orang yang anda mahu tag.
entahla nak tag sapa, malas. lagipown ramai dah start belajar. have better things to do than this.
kalu ko rasa ko leh jawab soalan ni dengan gila-gila dan bukan klise, sila jawab.
Tuliskan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag.
Tulis panjang2 pun takpe
aku tag tag sapa-sapa, so leh skip perah otak daripada jawab soalan ni. siot ar dasar pemalas aku ni. 6 bulan lebih dah tak perah otak.
Adakah anda happy dengan apa yang ada?
syukur
3.Tindakan anda bila dengar bunyi kilat dan petir?
masa untuk tidur
reaksi anda bila ada orang mengutuk anda
damn. tau kalu kutuk balik tu we're just as bad as they are, tapi kutuk balik gak. usually avoid je orang-orang camni, tapi kalau diorang intefere dengan my personal life, siapla kau. aku takkan duk senyap. tapi depends jugak, kalau tak big a threat sangat and I have better things to do and takde kudrat sangat nak plot revenge, buat donno je.
reaksi anda bila TERjumpa dengan artis favourite
selalunya buat relax je, bukannya kawan lama or Dato'-Dato' yang boleh berkenalan (sapa tau useful nanti nak 'mintak tolong' apa-apa.hehe) or kekasih hati pon nak get excited. haha. ok la, maybe kalau terserempak jarak dekat, sengih and minta autografla kot. kalau tak, biarkan dia blah gitu saja je.
maxis or celcom
celcom. tapi selalu je jahanamkan bill nombor maxis adik aku kalau celcom kena bar.
TIGA bad habit
banyak, but main three: MALAS, suka berleter macam MAK NENEK, mudah BESAR KEPALA.
..mak aihh..jatuh saham aku..
apa yang anda lakukan bila ada orang lain sebuk dengan hal anda
mula-mula wat donno je, tapi kalau dah anoying sangat tu, bagi je atas muka.
apa reaksi anda bila TERkentut busuk / kuat di khalayak ramai
hahaha..buat senyap ajela.biar orang saling munuduh, kalau orang tak perasan, keluar senyap-senyap. nak ngata belakang, ngatalah.. (erk? macam from experience je. takdela. )
aku sebenarnya jarang buat tag, melainkan yang "stylo", tapi takpe, demi Fikri, aku buat gak..hahaha..actually lots of other things on my mind, tapi satu benda ni je boleh pinpoint setakat ni
Apakah nama samaran u'all??
nama samaran, not gelaran ek? gelaran tu banyak, (kam, kambing, camel, kamil dsbg nya) tapi nama samaran tak banyak, ok la, nama samaran gue Wonder Woman, muahahahha (koya tahap gaban!)
Berikan 3 orang yg u'all sayang
just because tak tertulis doesnt mean aku tak sayang okay, tapi nak pilih tiga: my mum, my dad and myself.hahaha.kena sayang diri sendiri okay, kalau tak..
Panggilan utk si dia
.... (erhhh..no comment)
Hadiah yg korang impikan dari seseorang yg istimewa
bab-bab hadiah ni macam-macam boleh jadi. tapi setakat ini nak hadiah kebolehan memandu terrer gila. hahaha
Blog mane yg korang suke visit??
erm, banyak le. malas nak list. yang dalam blog list tu semua la. tapi yang kerap update tu yang lebih kerap berkunjung.
2. Adakah anda happy sekarang?
tak ada perasaan
Kenapa anda Happy?
why isn't this question structured like this: "kenapa anda rasa demikian?" ngokngekla ingat semua orang jawab dia happy ke? manatau kebetulan masa tu tengah geram dengan seseorang lepas geram buat tag ni.
Apakah benda yang boleh membuatkan anda happy?
dengar music, makan makanan kat Kelantan, menggatal dengan *tuut*, tengok comedy, ketawa sebab diorang buat lawak lucah..hahahah..macam-macam.
Pernahkah anda menerima tag??
banyak, tapi jarang buat.ikot mood,kadang-kadang tu malas je.
Nyatakan warna yang anda suka.
erm, warna apa ek sekarang ni? warna BLUE kot (chup! jangan fikir pelik! hal ini demikian sebab kemponan ngan baju-T biru kat Carrefour tu ye)
Beritahu 5 orang yang anda mahu tag.
entahla nak tag sapa, malas. lagipown ramai dah start belajar. have better things to do than this.
kalu ko rasa ko leh jawab soalan ni dengan gila-gila dan bukan klise, sila jawab.
Tuliskan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag.
Tulis panjang2 pun takpe
aku tag tag sapa-sapa, so leh skip perah otak daripada jawab soalan ni. siot ar dasar pemalas aku ni. 6 bulan lebih dah tak perah otak.
Adakah anda happy dengan apa yang ada?
syukur
3.Tindakan anda bila dengar bunyi kilat dan petir?
masa untuk tidur
reaksi anda bila ada orang mengutuk anda
damn. tau kalu kutuk balik tu we're just as bad as they are, tapi kutuk balik gak. usually avoid je orang-orang camni, tapi kalau diorang intefere dengan my personal life, siapla kau. aku takkan duk senyap. tapi depends jugak, kalau tak big a threat sangat and I have better things to do and takde kudrat sangat nak plot revenge, buat donno je.
reaksi anda bila TERjumpa dengan artis favourite
selalunya buat relax je, bukannya kawan lama or Dato'-Dato' yang boleh berkenalan (sapa tau useful nanti nak 'mintak tolong' apa-apa.hehe) or kekasih hati pon nak get excited. haha. ok la, maybe kalau terserempak jarak dekat, sengih and minta autografla kot. kalau tak, biarkan dia blah gitu saja je.
maxis or celcom
celcom. tapi selalu je jahanamkan bill nombor maxis adik aku kalau celcom kena bar.
TIGA bad habit
banyak, but main three: MALAS, suka berleter macam MAK NENEK, mudah BESAR KEPALA.
..mak aihh..jatuh saham aku..
apa yang anda lakukan bila ada orang lain sebuk dengan hal anda
mula-mula wat donno je, tapi kalau dah anoying sangat tu, bagi je atas muka.
apa reaksi anda bila TERkentut busuk / kuat di khalayak ramai
hahaha..buat senyap ajela.biar orang saling munuduh, kalau orang tak perasan, keluar senyap-senyap. nak ngata belakang, ngatalah.. (erk? macam from experience je. takdela. )
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Underneath Your Clothes
Honestly, NOTHING dirty in this blog post, chill.
That's a Shakira song that I really like. I haven't any idea for a blog post title, I just so happen to be listening to this song.
Okay, I'm blogging to put things into perspective.
1.
Pa just got a call from this Yayasan thing offering to give me a scholarship ONLY for my Foundation studies. Interview's this Saturday, proabably meting their Board of Trustees, so, sorry, can't hang out with some of ya guys.
The thing is, I know I still pine for JPA, but the last time, what happened?
Although I'd much rather want JPA (overseas appeal) or MARA, but looking at the circumstances of the very very very slim chance of getting it, well, if I got it, I'd be considered very lucky, in fact, it'd be a miracle, but maybe this Yayasan thing is a back door, just in case JPA ditched me again. Perhaps God is offering me a way out of this. And yes, I admit, I dread interviews, I'd rather start studying already like the rest of my friends, BUT, this could be my LAST chance to redeem myself, so I have to DO IT RIGHT this time. Otherwise..
Betulkan niat. Do my best for whatever is to come, like it or not. Basically, I have to take things in with an open heart and an open mind.
Yeah, I did also ask from MARA, and PNB has yet to be known of its status. So, anything can happen, and I'm sooo NOT in my comfort zone any more. At this crucial time, well, actually at ANY time, I should be bearing in mind that whatever comes my way is in God's hands. Humans propose, God dispose.
Okayyy..calm down..have faith. God may not give you what you want, but what you NEED. well, I hope my prayer is answered in whatever way is the best for me.
I always forget. I always do. I sometimes find my head, my big head, in the clouds, especially after a somewhat not-exactly-smooth-sailing-but-kind-of-successful-school-life. It's so easy to not be consistent. And too often I find myself either in a fit of anger or wallowing in self-pity, which is kind of bad.
2.
Oh, I also read up on an overview of Medicine syllabus. Oh My God, it's BIOLOGY HAVEN!!!!!!!! Nothing but pure Biology ALL THE WAYY..yeah, I know, it's A LOT. I wonder how much Biology is in Biomedical Engineering, but for sure, there's a more diverse range of subjects in Biomedical Engineering. Chemistry, Physics, Calculus, Computer Skills and Circuits, I guess.
I'd LOVE to start studying NOW. I know most of my friends have already started. Especially those in Matriculation and UTP. The ones in Uni just finished their orientation. I did give the TOEFL guide attention nowadays. I'd really like to start on Calculus. Seriously. I know, there's a possibility of me complaining that I don't get it, but I'd rather have that, figure my way around that eventually than have my brain rot. I do hope I'd be given that opportunity to study.
3.
Anyway, I gave in to my impulse today, and I bought, much to my satisfaction, this time, a red plaid shirt for RM 30. Yes, I'm broke now.
Yet, the nafsu never dies, it can only be restrained with Iman.
I find myself still obsessing over completing my wardrobe of containing clothes of every color. I had my eye on a blue RM 15 t-shirt with green slogan "save [water drop picture] save [light bulb picture] save [picture of Earth]" and a pair of Bata ankle-high high heel shoes which would look really great with jeans (I don't remeber the price, but definitely more than thirty bucks), and yes, I'm on the hunt for a pink tudung.
Percy Jackson still yet to be purchased. OMG so many things on my wish list, at a time with NO CASH.
That's a Shakira song that I really like. I haven't any idea for a blog post title, I just so happen to be listening to this song.
Okay, I'm blogging to put things into perspective.
1.
Pa just got a call from this Yayasan thing offering to give me a scholarship ONLY for my Foundation studies. Interview's this Saturday, proabably meting their Board of Trustees, so, sorry, can't hang out with some of ya guys.
The thing is, I know I still pine for JPA, but the last time, what happened?
Although I'd much rather want JPA (overseas appeal) or MARA, but looking at the circumstances of the very very very slim chance of getting it, well, if I got it, I'd be considered very lucky, in fact, it'd be a miracle, but maybe this Yayasan thing is a back door, just in case JPA ditched me again. Perhaps God is offering me a way out of this. And yes, I admit, I dread interviews, I'd rather start studying already like the rest of my friends, BUT, this could be my LAST chance to redeem myself, so I have to DO IT RIGHT this time. Otherwise..
Betulkan niat. Do my best for whatever is to come, like it or not. Basically, I have to take things in with an open heart and an open mind.
Yeah, I did also ask from MARA, and PNB has yet to be known of its status. So, anything can happen, and I'm sooo NOT in my comfort zone any more. At this crucial time, well, actually at ANY time, I should be bearing in mind that whatever comes my way is in God's hands. Humans propose, God dispose.
Okayyy..calm down..have faith. God may not give you what you want, but what you NEED. well, I hope my prayer is answered in whatever way is the best for me.
I always forget. I always do. I sometimes find my head, my big head, in the clouds, especially after a somewhat not-exactly-smooth-sailing-but-kind-of-successful-school-life. It's so easy to not be consistent. And too often I find myself either in a fit of anger or wallowing in self-pity, which is kind of bad.
2.
Oh, I also read up on an overview of Medicine syllabus. Oh My God, it's BIOLOGY HAVEN!!!!!!!! Nothing but pure Biology ALL THE WAYY..yeah, I know, it's A LOT. I wonder how much Biology is in Biomedical Engineering, but for sure, there's a more diverse range of subjects in Biomedical Engineering. Chemistry, Physics, Calculus, Computer Skills and Circuits, I guess.
I'd LOVE to start studying NOW. I know most of my friends have already started. Especially those in Matriculation and UTP. The ones in Uni just finished their orientation. I did give the TOEFL guide attention nowadays. I'd really like to start on Calculus. Seriously. I know, there's a possibility of me complaining that I don't get it, but I'd rather have that, figure my way around that eventually than have my brain rot. I do hope I'd be given that opportunity to study.
3.
Anyway, I gave in to my impulse today, and I bought, much to my satisfaction, this time, a red plaid shirt for RM 30. Yes, I'm broke now.
Yet, the nafsu never dies, it can only be restrained with Iman.
I find myself still obsessing over completing my wardrobe of containing clothes of every color. I had my eye on a blue RM 15 t-shirt with green slogan "save [water drop picture] save [light bulb picture] save [picture of Earth]" and a pair of Bata ankle-high high heel shoes which would look really great with jeans (I don't remeber the price, but definitely more than thirty bucks), and yes, I'm on the hunt for a pink tudung.
Percy Jackson still yet to be purchased. OMG so many things on my wish list, at a time with NO CASH.
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