Wednesday, June 30, 2010


When all there is between you and me
are miles and miles of separation and distance,
time and anticipation

the only thing that keeps us holding on,
are merely words of love
and unconditional TRUST.

My absence
does not necessarily equate to a deficit
in my affection,
rather, I think of you often
to keep the fire burning at night
so that I don't succumb to the merciless cold.

no matter what the risks are,
I'd gamble all my luck
if winning is worth everything.

no matter how far
or how long time keeps you away from me,
separated by two glass walls,
or blinded in a pitch black room,
I'd still find you.

no matter how fate can turn you inside out,
or upside down

will keep things together,
drawn like gravity,
and leads the rivers back to the ocean.

will give strength to dreams;
the extra step to conquer the mountain;
the reason to keep believing and pushing on.

Trust me,
Don't give up on hope
Don't give up on dreams
Don't give up on faith
Don't give up on LOVE.

note: inspired by Cheryl Cole's Fight For This Love. (quote: If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for). this is not the rhyming verse  format of poems, it's more like a Malay sajak structure. Very simple choice of words, almost conversational, not that metaphoric, although there are a few here. I have not written poems for so many years. I think I suck at it now. I wonder when was the last time I posted a poem. I wrote this poem for my friends, family and for those in a long-distance relationship. Yeah, challenging, aite? Okay, I know this is hard for me to admit, I don't read lovey dovey novels nor watch lovey dovey dramas nor swoon at lovey dovey movies, and I may not be a true blue romantic, but I am jiwang when it comes to songs and poetry. ohhh....God! spare me, this is so damn jiwaaaaaannnnnngg........

Art and Life

In Sepet, Orked says, "Every Malay is lazy."

hahaha.Who couldn't agree more? Is it because they embrace the fact that makes it so much harder to change their mindset?

I know it's a tad bit old. I just started watching Yasmin Ahmad's films. Well, in my house you don't get much Malay movies. I've seen a few Malay movies and not many are worth my money nor to be deemed watchable, sadly. However, for a local film, Yasmin Ahmad's movies are a class of their own.

There is a sense of 'art' in which each scene is captured. It feels a lot more 'real' than other Malay movies. It is not superficial like other Malay movies, where they always capture KL life, polished homes, even some of the rumah papan looks so fake. The diversity in language and culture portrayed as well as the use of music from different ethnicities, it makes it all the more interesting. Another fact that I liked it is a lot of use of English. ngee~

Orked's character is engaging. There was one scene in Sepet she was at a party, but she was wearing baju kurung, I mean, seriously la, who goes to late night parties wearing baju kurung? But with a touch of Yasmin Ahmad, it seems acceptable. Orked pulled it off. Her character's personality is convincing, and she's far from the streotypical Malay movies characters. She's got SPUNK. She breathes life into the story. Sharifah Amani is to Yasmin Ahmad like Johnny Depp is to Tim Burton.

The characters are interesting and well-developed and very colorful. A troubled Chinese guy who comes from a broken family and gets into all sorts of messy situations, but writes poetry. A Malay-speaking Nyonya in a Mandarin-speaking household. I still don't get how Yam the supposedly orang gaji have so much 'authority' over her employers. So far I've only watched Gubra and Sepet. The plots are very simple. They are just a story about life, but the execution was unconventional, for a local film lah. It's not a cutboard cutout, and although you can sometimes predict what is going to happen, but you are still entertained and you just let the movie take you for the ride. I have yet to watch Muhsin, Talentime and Muallaf. Well, they're available on DVD, I haven't bought them yet.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

How Much I Watch FIFA This Year

I am generally not a football fan. I don't have that attention span to watch how the ball gets passed around back and forth between two ends of the field, and I just don't get the hype to shout "GOAL!". I've watched FIFA finals in 2004, and that's about that. I don't watch EPL, or any other football matches. Well, I value sleep more than having to stay up at 2 am to watch football. Then in 2009, I watched the Kelantan-Negeri Sembilan match, and I decided, that's it, I'm not watching anymore local football. It was so agitating watching them play like amateurs compared to the real action in FIFA.

So far, this year, I watched:

Germany vs. Serbia
Portugal vs. Korea DPR
Brazil vs. Portugal
Germany vs. England
Paraguay vs. Japan
Spain vs. Portugal

Not that many matches, I know. During prelims, I only watch the 7 o'clock slots.Yeah, I hate to stay up, and I'm more likely to be in front of the computer. I actually stayed up until 2 for Spain and Portugal last night. hoyeah.

Brazil's really nice to watch. However, I really like Germany's precision. The way the ball goes through the opponents' legs (this sounds a bit weird, but I'm not implying anything dirty), the passing, the shooting, the strategy. So next one is Germany vs. Argentina. Go Germany!

Oh, and thanks to Filzah, baru nak kenal-kenal berjinak-jinak dengan Spanish players yang handsome: Cesc Fabregas, David Villa. (That's what we girls are most focused on anyways).

I know Filzah doesn't like Cristiano Ronaldo, but he's boleh tahanlah. Due to the fact that I debated on a motion about him once in UIA, so there's this weird kind of 'affection' for him. The eyebrows are interesting. haha. Just kidding.

Oh, in my school days, I enjoyed playing football during P.E. although I don't play that often. Even in my highschool days, if given the chance to play Futsal, I'd play any day. I don't like to play basketball or handballor netball or hockey or volley ball or badminton, I just don't know why. I just don't like it. The few games that I enjoy playing or could actually play is golf, baseball and futsal. Yeah, I'm not a pro on the actual rules and regulations, since we just play among girls for fun, we just end up shouting and screaming while chasing the ball. Yeah, being girls, missed passing and all that stuff is normal. Only me (with luck that I share my birthday with David Beckham, ceh, berkait ke?) and a few girls actually were into it. Me and those few girls, I remebered Massurie and Faezah would go for high balls and yeah, We'd rough it out with each other, but it was fun. ahhh..good ole' innocent school days.

okayyy..that's about it on my FIFA fever. Not that bad-lah. At least I'm feelin' it this year.

Friday, June 25, 2010

and I'm sayin' OMG, there's so many ways to love ya

What's with me and loong post titles now eh?

Oh, that song just popped into my head, by the way. At this point, I am so so certain I'm not getting my three essays back from my school. I should've known. Oh well, so much for keeping my hopes up, but I know I won't be seeing creative writing for a long long time.

Anyway, just blogging random thoughts these few days, nothing much going on. Just getting ready for school-I mean, college. There's a LOT of change I have to embrace. I'm pretty much terrified of not being able to cope. So, lately, I've been revising my Form 5 Add Maths (the least revised, sorry to say, I'm most teacher-centric on this subject. I think, apart from Physics, this is the only one subject that I'm very teacher-centric), Physics (teacher-centric also, but less compared to Add Maths. For these two subjects, I owe it a lot to Aiman Yusoh for helping me figure it out) and Chemistry (so far in terms of understanding, I'm fine I guess, just a lot to memorise). Even so, when I look back, SPM suddenly seemed like small fry compared to what's to come. Although I still don't get some of the things, but it suddenly seemed so basic, so elementary so... I don't know..

And to think that I will learn a lot whithin a short period of time, that spells no more last minute studying. I am so used to studying last minute for SPM. Not to say that I study last minute, I mean to say is, for mid-term, mid-semesters I do study last minute, but I ensure that I study sufficient enough for me to easily recall the facts for the next big exam so I don't have to study much even if I do study last minute for the big exam. For topic tests, I normally don't study for it, but luckily I was able to recall most of what I've learnt. I don't know if I'll have that same luck in college. Let's say I try make the best of how little or how much I study, and yes, I have my own timetable in my head. In one sitting, I always aim to finish a certain topic, and most of the time, I do. For subjects that require a lot of memorising (which is, most of the subjects, by the way) I can't do without my notes. They're like my security blanket or something, it gives me confidence to answer the exam. If lets say, I don't finish the notes I aimed to finish, I feel like I've not studied enough. I must write stuff down, but if I do the-night-before-exam-cramming, like PAI, I just read. However for Sejarah and Chemistry, if I don't do my notes, I don't feel like I've studied, so I end up doing the same notes over and over again everytime I study. That's why I don't care much if my handwriting is very 'pretty'. Even if I do reuse my notes, I will eventually add on stuff to it. Yeah, I doodle a lot too with highliters, pens and pencils. I also appreciate group-studyng if they can keep up with my pace. Especially for Add Maths and Physics, I'd always need a tutor. I stay up on average only up to 12.30 am. I've only stayed up to 2, 2.30 am once. (If it's past 2 am, that's usually coz of pillow talks. It's 'high' time around 3 am and above). Sometimes I sleep early if I don't have any work to do. Even so, if sleep gets to me, I just give in, but mind you, I hate waking up early. I've only studied early in the morning once, and nope, although people say it's better, well, my body clock just doesn't obey. I do most of my studying on my bed becuase there's lots of room to dump my books. Yes, I doze off sometimes, regardless whether it's at the desk or the bed, but it's better to doze off in the bed, because it's a better sleepig position. If I were in class, I'd usually search for an empty table and dump my books there while I studied. Yes, much to my friends' complaining, I'm a messy person. If I know I put it in that pile, I will find it in that pile, don't ever touch my stuff and put it elsewhere. Another thing is, sleep is so important to me. I usually wake up around 6 am ++. Earlier than that, I'd doze off in class. After 6, I can stay alert most of the time as long as I'm not under extreme circumstances over-exert myself over something the night before. During my PMR years, I slept A LOT. People actually say that every time they pass by my class they'd catch me sleeping. Well, sometimes, I actually advocate prep time just for sleeping, but yeah, workload is not that much at that time, so I do have time to sleep. In my SPM years, my sleeping days are over, yet I still fell asleep unintentionally in Sejarah (the Sejarah room is dark and AIR-CONDITIONED, and I'd always sleep by the window ledge where I can place my hand and rest my head. The moment I sit down, I open my book with pen in hand ready to jot down, I see the teacher come in, and the next thing I know when I opened my eyes, the kids were shutting their books and heading out and I missed a lesson of one whole chapter), Maths (the teacher always leaves us to do our work on our own. I'd finish early and wait for my friends, in the meantime, I fell asleep), Agama (Form 4 only, in Form 5, the ustazah always caught me sleeping and made me stand up), BM, Physics (Form 4 only. I was actually interested in Form 5 subjects, and yes, I was desperate). Those were the most prominent ones. Actually I did sleep at least once for every subject. I don't intend to, it just happens, but luckily my attention span improved somewhat in Form 5, and I don't doodle nor sleep that much in class. I could say that towards the end, I didn't sleep in class at all. In Form 5, I admit, I was a bit left behind in Add Maths, Sejarah, Prinsip Akaun, Physics, and I had to do A LOT of catching up, boy, it wasn't easy. Although in exams, yes, I still sleep, but for major exams, like Trials, Finals and the Big One, I don't sleep on those. For Mid-Sems, yeah. In my PMR years, plenty of sleep time since most of the papers are objectives (except for Maths, I take time answering that due to the calculations involved), so I spend like 15 minutes to answer then sleep. Usually it's Agama because I stayed up cramming the night before, and I'd do the paper in one hour until I were done (even the Ustazah noticed that most my answers were logic-based and not exactly by the book), and I'd spend the next hour sleeping. I wake up with ample time to recheck twice. Cocky? mm..maybe..that;s why I find myself making stupid, careless mistakes. Especially for Chemistry, Maths, Add Maths and Physics. It's not so much that I didn't know, but I just didn't bother enough to check to make sure my answers were correct. I was just "okay, I'm done with it." Yeah, I sound as if I'm so over-confident and laidback like I'm not taking my exams seriously just because I always get away with satisfactory grades. Well, now, I'm not sure if that attitude will do me any good in college. I definitely have to change my ways. I wouldn't like to not be able to score on my exams because I didn't know something, that would be very despairing to me, nor would I not be able to score because I was careless, that would be very frustrating. So yeah, good bye last minute studying.

OMG, why am I talking about studying? well, I very much treasure my school notes. They might look like mere scribbles and doodles, yeah, thanks to  my pretty handwriting, but I usually keep them awhile before eventually throwing them out, but still, when it comes to my work, it's actually kind of sayang to throw out. Well, at least it gives me a sense of accomplishment, that I actually worked hard for something and I didn't slack around. When I look at it, I sometimes amaze myself. I'm not bragging, but sometimes, I can't help looking at those notes and say, "wow, how did I ever come up with that? and I can't come up with anything like that now? wow, I was so rajin." Sort of like self-motivation.

That's why I'd really really like my essays back.



I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad

Buy all of the things I never had

Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine

Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

Oh every time I close my eyes

I see my name in shining lights

A different city every night oh

I swear the world better prepare

For when I’m a billionaire
Know that song?
haha.okay, so I've been thinking.
When I was little, I used to have an ambition that I'd be filthy rich and live the luxurious lifestyle like a movie star, although I might not be one. You know, have a mansion with a swimming pool and maids. A big wide-screen TV and karaoke set, high-tech gadgets, a roomful of clothes and shoes, and all the money in the world to buy anything I want, and I can spend it or give it to anyone non-chalantly because my money reserve is so bottomless, kind of like you know, the Scrooge duck in the Mickey Mouse shows.
Then, I started writng stories, and I thought if I wrote a best-seller, I'd get to that dream. well, look at me now. The only thing I'm writing now is my blog, and after this, probably thesises and research papers and academic writing.
Then, later on, my billionaire dream kind of wore away. The realistic me just thought, no way.
Then I thought about getting rich so that I don't have any debts and I could send my kids without need of scholarship for overseas education. You see, if you have your own money, it'd be a lot easier because you can choose whatever program you'd like to pursue instead of just accepting whatever options the government gives you. You can choose to apply to any university you want. There's no risk of having to pay back the scholarship money if you don't do well. Then, there's no reason to worry about getting a scholarship or not. But then again,, I'll have to be FILTHY RICH to be able to do this. Like, having a Datukship or something.
Getting rich seems like a lot of hard work for a commoner like me. Some people have it easy, being born into the family of a business mogul. Not to say that being rich is not possible, or unattainable, it is, with a lot of hard work and opportunistic attitude.
Of course, if I wanted to get rich the easy way, I could just dabble in business, or play it dirty with politics, or something like that. But no, I don't have the guts for that kind of thing. I can push myself to soldier on in pursuing something (although I might be doing it with a LOT of complaining, but I do it, nonetheless), but I don't exactly have that ruthlessness for politics nor business.
Not to say that I don't set high goals for myself. I do, but somehow, deep down inside, I know that being 'homey' and moderate is very much appealing. Yes, I sometimes like to be on the move. I was, most of the time at school, but at the end of the day, I would always look for that quiet place to come back to.
It explains why even if I live in KL, the high life is not my life. I'm not the life of the party. I love spending time with my friends, but going all wild, no way. I hate crowded places a s well. I don't feel at home in KL, except for my house, which is, by the way, in the suburbs. To me, KL is just a loud, hectic, LEPAK-ing place. A place for people with money to splurge, splurge, splurge. It feels so loud yet so empty. I might work in KL, but when it comes to home, I think of quiet places. Secluded, simple. It does not necessarily need lavish furnishings with million-dollar-worth paintings on the wall with all those high-tech gizmos that I mention earlier, just a simple home would do. Heck, home-cooked meals taste better than posh stuff anyway. Even if they taste just as good, I find it more satisfying in a 'successful' home-cooked meal.
Don't shoot me if I can't show you directions in KL.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Ignore The Wolverine Picture

hahaha. it has nothing to do whatsoever with what I have to post, but yeah, I just watched X-Men Origins and Hugh Jackman is so appealing. hahahaha

Anyway, just a random one here. I have yet to start college, but it's in 19 days away, and I'm not even 40% done with the preparations. Up till now before college, most of my school friends are now in Uni, and out of sheer boredom sometimes, I still ring them up, like I still can't let go of it, while some, like Syakir, so easily and effortlessly sever the ties, and cease to contact anyone.

There are many aspects to my fear of the unknown, and to elaborate one by one, well, it's going to be a long one, and like I said before, everybody has a bit of Asperger's in them.

I initially wanted to post some random memory I had about school, but suddenly I just forgot, which explains why my Down Memory Lane suddenly went dry of ideas, and stopped at 13. Well, actually I have a lot planned, but when it came to writing it down, there wasn't flair, and something was missing and I consider it shoddy work, so I don't post it altogether, notice that some of them actually sound report-ish?

Yes, I know, I'm heading for academic writing instead of creative writing now.

Anyway, Jaja. I miss our secret handshake.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

I Am Reminded Once Again Of How Much I Hate Stalkers

I watched Obsessed on HBO. My God, it was creepy. Actually, it was predictable, Beyonce' will save the day in the end, and of course, the climax boils down to the typical horror movie/thriller tips and tricks, and I caught myself laughing my head off, because seeing a cat fight in 3-inch heels is damn hillarious. Not to say that the movie is bad, no, it's actually watchable, well, due to the fact that, everybody is somewhat afraid of stalkers, and yeah, Ali Larter makes such a creepy, but HOT stalker. Imagine if you replace Ali Larter with a weirdo guy who's socially challenged and dresses funny, and the one being stalked is you, Ohh God...if that hapens, I'll be having a nightmare! But that's the kind of thought that plays in your head when you watch this movie. It's not so much that it's so original that makes an impact on you, but rather, it's the questions behind that movie that actually makes you feel discomfort. Another issue to ponder about here is infidelity and marriage. See how easily a marriage falls apart. If I were Ali Larter in that movie, I should be congratulating myself after the sucide incident, it worked beautifully because that perfect marriage was fast falling apart. The BIG mistake she made was messing with the kid when the guy is winning back the wife. You know why the first part actually worked? well, it's because it tests the trust the spouses have for each other, and they trun against each other, but when the stalker pulls a trick like that at a time like that, yep, that got Beyonce' mad, and now, she's a gainst the stalker. You know, I am obviously biased towards the female kind. Some of the men were actually portrayed so easily swayed and lamb-like that you can't help but say, "grrr! you nitwit! it's so damn obvious she's getting something out of you, and you didn't see it?" And at the end of the day, who saves the day? Miss B. Yeah, at the beginning of the movie, she's always the one staying at home, missing out on the action, but for the last 15 minutes or so, the husband's out of the action. haha. funny.
nah, don't get me wrong. Okay, I was a feminist, I guess now I'm more liberal on the gender thing, but I still believe in femalae empowerment. self-empowerment. Sometimes, it's not about fighting for equal rights, but somehow, I think women should discover more of their self-worth rather than let men take advantage of them and exploit them. That should be the true feminist spirit. In certain countries, yeah, I think women are still being sidelined and not treated with respect, but for other countries that actually acknowledge women and give them equal rights, there's nothing more to press on about. At least women now are given wider education and work opportunites, even in some countries, leadership positions. The only thing left here to work on is their sense of SELF-WORTH. Female empowerment is not just about some legislation that acknowledges women, but it's about being conscious about your own value as an individual. Probably by then, more women would love themselves more and think twice about "giving it all" to the men. You get my drift. Wait. I'm suppose to be writing a review, now I've strayed all the way to feminism? hahaha.

Tertawalah, kerana seluruh dunia akan tertawa bersamamu. Jangan bersedih, kerana kamu bersedih sendirian

Positif sekali tajuk blog post kali ini ya?

Julung-julung kalinya saya cuba menulis dalam Bahasa Kebangsaan yang tertib. Selalunya saya menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris yang bersifat slanga.

Ungkapan itu, mungkin tidak setepat mana seperti yang tertulis dalam buku yang dipetik ayat tersebut, tetapi, lebih kurang samalah maksudnya.
Saya baru sahaja selesai membaca tiga daripada tetralogi Laskar Pelangi karya Andrea Hirata.

Nyata saya tidak dapat memberikan ulasan terperinci dari segi lenggok dan komponen sasteranya kerana dari dulu sampai sekarang, saya agak buta sastera Melayu. Walau bagaimanapun, saya masih dapat berkongsi pendapat mengenai buah fikiran yang ingin disampaikan  dan jalan ceritanya.

Buku pertama ialah Laskar Pelangi. Buku ini, setakat ini yang paling tebal dan mengisahkan perihal zaman kanak-kanak penulis. Rasanya sinopsisnya boleh dibaca dari sumber internet lain. Mengenai buku pertama ini, bagi saya, pacing (apa ya istilahnya dalam Bahasa Melayu?) ceritanya agak lambat, dan penerangannya sarat dengan nama saintifik tumbuh-tumbuhan dan istilah-istilah sains. (Mungkinkah kerana sudah lebih enam bulan bercuti otakku sudah sedikit lembab menerima lambakan maklumat? Oh, tidak. Nampaknya perlu 'dipanaskan' semula.)Ya, jika meneliti glosarinya memang banyak ilmu yang boleh didapati, terutamanya ilmu Biologi.

Saya mengambil masa paling lama untuk menghabiskan buku Laskar Pelangi. Banyak idea mengenai ekonomi dan sosial tempatan (bagi latar cerita tersebutlah, iaitu di Belitong, Indonesia) yang jelas ditampilkan dalam bentuk satira dan sarcasm mirip-mirip The White Tiger karya Aravind Adiga. Terdapat juga bahagian-bahagian menyentuh perasaan yang bertemakan potensi yang tidak tercapai. Secara keseluruhannya, ada bahagian yang 'efektif', dan ada bahagian yang sedikit membosankan. Beberapa analogi yang menarik dengan pemilihan kata-kata yang berkesan. Pada amatan saya, banyak hiperbola dan personifikasi. (ceh. masih ingatkah saya akan intipati kelas KOMSAS Cikgu Paridah?) Dari segi latar, walaupun saya bukanlah berasal dari kampung, tetapi 'terasa'lah juga nostalgia suasana kampung yang ingin dibangkitkan.

Buku kedua ialah Sang Pemimpi. Buku ini yang paling nipis, dan setakat ini yang paling menghiburkan kerana pacing yang lebih pantas dan babak-babak humor.

Buku ketiga ialah Edensor. Buku ini menceritakan mengenai pengembaraan penulis sebagai anak dagang. Latarnya berbeza daripada kedua buku sebelumnya kerana latarnya di Eropah. Kagum sungguh dibuatnya dengan ketabahan dan 'kesetiaan' watak Si Ikal dan Arai.

Ketiga-tiga buku ini saling bersinambungan antara satu sama lain. Cerita ini berdasarkan kisah sebenar penulis. Memang disarankan sebagai bahan motivasi yang cukup efektif untuk membakar semangat untuk belajar. (sungguh bersesuaian sekali memandangkan saya sendiri juga bakal sambung belajar tidak lama lagi. Moga-moga semangat itu terus berkobar!) Kini setelah habis membaca ketiga-tiga buku tersebut. Teringin pula membaca buku keempatnya, Maryamah Karpov sebagai peneman malam-malam yang sunyi sebelum tidur. haha.

*My God, my BM sucks.*

Friday, June 18, 2010

To Do

1. Medical Check-up. Check. Done. 21st collect report.

2. Fill in forms:

> the ones in the yellow booklet (3, excluding 2 medical forms, + 2 surat terima biasiswa)
> 3 Perjanjian
> aku janji

Taylor's College: application form (passport photo, certified copy of IC, SPM results, MQA transcript)

3. mati setem (3)

4. open CIMB account. (make a copy of penyata akaun bank to be submitted during registration).

5. photostat offer letter (several copies. definitely certified ones for PLKN, another one for Taylor's).

6. start buying stationary, toiletries, log books

Monday, June 14, 2010

Playtime's Over, Kam

Program: International Canadian Pre-University (ICPU)

Basically, by the end of the program you obtain an Ontario Secondary School Diploma (Grade 12)

Duration: 1 year.

2 semesters, each comprising 20 weeks of classes and examinations. Students complete 3 credit subjects each semester. This enables students to have a greater control of their progress throughout the course.


MQA Subjects:  Malaysian students are required to study MQA compulsory subjects (Malaysian Studies and Moral Education/Islamic Studies) in the first semester. They are also required to take Bahasa Kebangsaan A in the second semester if they do not have a credit in Bahasa Melayu at SPM level.

Timetable Classes are from 8.00am/ 9.15am to 4.45pm everyday. Students will be given double
periods (75 minutes X 2) for each subject.

Second semester: Students will take FOUR (4) Pre–U subjects in the second semester.
  1. English 4U
  2. Physics
  3. Chemistry
  4. Advanced Functions
  5. Calculus and Vector
  6. (elective subject. recommended: Computer Science)

sekurang-kurangnya setiap satu kena score 80%

English ENG4U
This course emphasises consolidation of literacy, critical thinking and communication skills. Students will analyse a range of challenging texts from various time periods, countries and cultures; write analytical and argumentative essays and a major paper for an independent literary research project; and apply key concepts to analyse media works. An important focus will be on understanding academic language and using it coherently and confidently in discussion and argument.

Physics SPH4U
The course enables students to deepen their understanding of physics concepts and theories. Students will continue their exploration of energy transformations and the forces that affect motion, and will investigate electrical, gravitational, and magnetic fields and electromagnetic radiation. Students will also explore the wave nature of light, quantum mechanics, and special relativity. They will further develop their scientific investigation skills, learning, for example, how to analyse, qualitatively and quantitatively, data related to a variety of physics concepts and principles. Students will also consider the impact of technological applications of physics on society and the environment.

Chemistry SCH4U
This course enables students to deepen their understanding of chemistry through the study of organic chemistry, the structure and properties of matter, energy changes and rates of reaction, equilibrium in chemical systems, and electrochemistry. Students will further develop problem-solving and investigation skills as they investigate chemical processes, and will refine their ability to communicate scientific information. Emphasis will be placed on the importance of chemistry in everyday life and on evaluating the impact of chemical technology on the environment.

Advanced Functions MHF4U
This course extends students' experience with functions. Students will investigate the properties of polynomial, rational, logarithmic, and trigonometric functions; develop techniques for combining functions; broaden their understanding of rates of change; and develop facility in applying these concepts and skills. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended both for students taking the Calculus and Vectors course as a prerequisite for a university programme and for those wishing to consolidate their understanding of mathematics before proceeding to any one of a variety of university programmes.

Calculus and Vectors MCV4U
This course builds on students' previous experience with functions and their developing understanding of rates of change. Students will solve problems involving geometric and algebraic representations of vectors and representations of lines and planes in three-dimensional space; broaden their understanding of rates of change to include the derivatives of polynomial, sinusoidal, exponential, rational, and radical functions; and apply these concepts and skills to the modeling of real-world relationships. Students will also refine their use of the mathematical processes necessary for success in senior mathematics. This course is intended for students who choose to pursue careers in fields such as science, engineering, economics, and some areas of business, including those students who will be required to take a university-level calculus, linear algebra, or physics course.

Prerequisite: The new Advanced Functions course (MHF4U) must be taken prior to or concurrently with Calculus and Vectors (MCV4U).

Computer Science ICS4U
This course enables students to further develop knowledge and skills in computer science. Students will use modular design principles to create complex and fully documented programmes, according to industry standards. Student teams will manage a large software development project, from planning through to project review. Students will also analyse algorithms for effectiveness. They will investigate ethical issues in computing and further explore environmental issues, emerging technologies, areas of research in computer science, and careers in the field.

oh! oh! oh! and compulsory 10-hour community service!!

A student’s final grade is based on coursework (70%) and a final examination (30%). Coursework is carried out throughout the program and includes assignments, quizzes, attendance, participation in class and class tests.

English Proficiency Requirements: TOEFL

a score of at least 550 on the paper-based, 213 on the computer-based or an overall 80 on the internet-based Test of English as a Foreign Language with a score of 19 or higher on Reading and Listening and 18 or higher on Speaking and Writing;

sourced from: Taylor's College website, University of Saskatchewan requirements, and lots of others

oh,,, additional comment from Facebook, my dad said:

Make sure you secure maximum marks for coursework then the final will be less stressfull. Normally the course will have 1 or 2 exams which can carry 20% + 20%, final carries 30%. Assignment can be between 15-20%, quizzes qbout 5-10%. Attendance & participation normally free 5% marks. But most of the time attendance and participation do not carry any marks.

hurhhhh..can't wait to start studying. I'd love to see books on the aforementioned subjects just to give me an idea of what's to come. At school we always take home the following year's textbooks, so I can look at it right away. Now, it's like venturing into the unknown. Probably I'll start by revisng my Form Five.

no more playtime.

Saturday, June 12, 2010


I grew up in KL, but I don't know the friggin' way around it. Put me in the middle of KL, or tell me to find my way to certain places, and I'll get lost for sure.

I've never taken the bus in KL, so I think I know Kelantan bus routes better.

I'm so paranoid of crowds, getting lost, getting kidnapped in a public transport.

I've only been to Midvalley once. It's so big I get lost, I don't have proper bearings there. Well, it takes time even for me to get my bearings right. The parking lots are creepy.

Thank God some interviews were conducted at KL Sentral area, if not, I wouldn't even know what's there or how to take an LRT myself. It's quite simple actually.

I've never been to The Curve, Pavillion, Sunway Pyramid. No reason to go there either. They're all the same to me. I've been to Times Square whatnot, and they're just lepak places. Maybe it's because I haven't been there yet that I say so, once I've actually been there...tapi kan, the first time I went to Midvalley with my friends pun, I still don't get the hype about it.

Sue me I tak banyak berjalan in KL, but for what? If I actually get around to berjalan a lot, I bet I'd squander my money away. Even at Carrefour, I've spent on RM 30 below clothes and shoes almost everytime I go there. urhhhh..bad spending habits. Now I have to cure this obsession for colorful clothes. Having jellybeans as my blog background isn't helping, but I'd rather not change it.

Living five years in Kelantan, although I am NOT a Kelantanese, I was not born there, yes, I don't eat budu unless it's in nasi kerabu, I feel more at home in Kelantan. Probably because they have simpler routes, and I know my way around KB, and everything is so laidback there. tak ada apa sangat except the simple pleasures in life, good food, ceh. (KL has lots of food, spoiled for choice, but the pricing la pulak, and you have to know which are the good places, otherwise macam tak happy je with your choice and banyak pulak duit habis.of course, one thing about Kelantan is not many choices of books. Kinokuniya has everything!) No hang out places except the one and only KB Mall. and the Kelantanese dialect is sooo interesting, and if you speak it among the Kelantanese, you kind of 'clicked' with them. Entah, maybe I'm just missing my school peeps.

Sometimes, when I introduce myself to people, I mention my school name and they ask where it is and I'd said Kelantan, it seems a lot easier for me to pretend to be a Kelantanese than to have explain to them that I actually live in KL. har har. Once during The Star Public Speaking competition, I was one of only two Malay girls who showed up and I was the only one there showing up in traditional clothing (kebaya), and I introduced myself to other people that I was a Kelantanese. And they (especially the Chinese) said, " Wow, I've never been there. What's it like? You people actually speak good English." bakpo? ingat oghe klate tok biso kecek oghe putih ko? (bekwoh=  big word, drebar= driver, prebet= private, kona= corner..just to name a few Kelantanese vocab) hahhahaha

and thanks to Fikri, baru tahu 'kacang mior' tu ladies fingers.

kalau Canada macam Kelantan kan best (this is a funny statement). I would like to try lobster *drools*

nota kaki:  "darat orang KL ni."

Friday, June 11, 2010

get busy

Imma check this out:

1. University of Toronto (engineering #1 canada , #5 NAmerica #8 world) – BASc in Computer/ Electrical Engineering (minor Bioengineering)

2. University of British Columbia (#17 world ) no biomedical

3. McGill University (#20 world) - No bachelors for biomedical but offers Masters in biomedical engineering

4. University of Waterloo (#27 world) – BASc in Electrical/Computer with Biomechanics option

5. University of Alberta (#46 world) - BASc in Electrical Eng. with biomedical engineering option... See More

6. University of Calgary (#87 world) – BASc in Biomedical Engineering Specialization

7. McMaster University (#89 world) – BASc in Electrical & Biomedical Engineering

8. Simon Fraser University – BASc in Biomedical Engineering (honors)

nanti nak cari jugak sal Taylor's and ICPU. and also Canada. There must be more than just maple syrup and Avril Lavigne. (of course lah!)
time to get busy.

My Blog Looks So GAYY Now

I love blogger's new toy: the template designer thannggg.. love the jelly beans!

I changed my blog name to Gambar Gajah (ARAHAN: sila teliti gambar rajah gajah di bawah dan jawab soalan-soalan berikutnya) , just a random thought, and it's a funny name, but don't expect me to post pictures of elephants .

okay, just to commemorate the change of name,'s one snagged from the internet..



Gambar Rajah Gajah 1.1

  1.  Berapa kali blog ini sudah bertukar nama?
_________________________________ (5 m)

2. Berapakah umur blog ini?

__________________________________(5 m)

Jumlah: __ / 10 m

hahahaha, lawak..lawak..macam tak ada kerja je aku ni

Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Kuasa

Keputusan Rayuan JPA PILN: Engineering, Canada

International Canadian Pre-University (ICPU) 1 Tahun at Taylor's College, Subang Jaya

Sunday, June 06, 2010


Kenapa tajuk post sedemikian rupa? well, aku dalam stage merapu-rapu ni. *that time of the month* perghhh....alasan!

Sebenarnya, itu bunyi Grover the satyr bleating. kononnya.

Baru sahaja melengkapkan koleksi series Percy Jackson. Nyata puas hati dan tamatlah kegilaan Percy Jackson. Nasib baiklah pacing cerita dia agak cepat dan setiap judul tu taklah tebal sangat. Bahasa pun santai. If it were more than 5 books, I'd already be bored by then.

Masuk buku terakhir ini, memang sedikit kebosanan telah dirasai.

Dah boleh agak dah siapa belot siapa, siapa yang nak mengorat siapa, ending macam mana.

Tapi nasib baiklah buku last baru nak bosan, kalau tengah-tengah jalan dah bosan, alamatnya tak sempat habislah baca series dia ni. Out of  the five books, I really like the third and fourth book (eihh, kebetulan sama dengan Harry Potter). Daedalus is so cool. haha.

Not much to be said pasal buku ni. As usual, a modest end to a spectacular heroic saga. ceh.

Still, tak ada buku boleh beat ending Bartimaeus Trilogy. Siot best. The ending compensated for everything else the story-telling lacked.

Okay, itu sahaja setakat ini.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

TAG dari FIKRI, rakan berontak di sekolah

1.Apa yg bermain difikiran anda sekarang ni??

aku sebenarnya jarang buat tag, melainkan yang "stylo", tapi takpe, demi Fikri, aku buat gak..hahaha..actually lots of other things on my mind, tapi satu benda ni je boleh pinpoint setakat ni

Apakah nama samaran u'all??

nama samaran, not gelaran ek? gelaran tu banyak, (kam, kambing, camel, kamil dsbg nya) tapi nama samaran tak banyak, ok la, nama samaran gue Wonder Woman, muahahahha (koya tahap gaban!)

Berikan 3 orang yg u'all sayang

just because tak tertulis doesnt mean aku tak sayang okay, tapi nak pilih tiga: my mum, my dad and myself.hahaha.kena sayang diri sendiri okay, kalau tak..

Panggilan utk si dia

.... ( comment)

Hadiah yg korang impikan dari seseorang yg istimewa

bab-bab hadiah ni macam-macam boleh jadi. tapi setakat ini nak hadiah kebolehan memandu terrer gila. hahaha

Blog mane yg korang suke visit??

erm, banyak le. malas nak list. yang dalam blog list tu semua la. tapi yang kerap update tu yang lebih kerap berkunjung.

2. Adakah anda happy sekarang?

tak ada perasaan

Kenapa anda Happy?

why isn't this question structured like this: "kenapa anda rasa demikian?" ngokngekla ingat semua orang jawab dia happy ke? manatau kebetulan masa tu tengah geram dengan seseorang lepas geram buat tag ni.

Apakah benda yang boleh membuatkan anda happy?

dengar music, makan makanan kat Kelantan, menggatal dengan *tuut*, tengok comedy, ketawa sebab diorang buat lawak lucah..hahahah..macam-macam.

Pernahkah anda menerima tag??

banyak, tapi jarang buat.ikot mood,kadang-kadang tu malas je.

Nyatakan warna yang anda suka.

erm, warna apa ek sekarang ni? warna BLUE kot (chup! jangan fikir pelik! hal ini demikian sebab kemponan ngan baju-T biru kat Carrefour tu ye)

Beritahu 5 orang yang anda mahu tag.

entahla nak tag sapa, malas. lagipown ramai dah start belajar. have better things to do than this.

kalu ko rasa ko leh jawab soalan ni dengan gila-gila dan bukan klise, sila jawab.

Tuliskan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag.

Tulis panjang2 pun takpe

aku tag tag sapa-sapa, so leh skip perah otak daripada jawab soalan ni. siot ar dasar pemalas aku ni. 6 bulan lebih dah tak perah otak.

Adakah anda happy dengan apa yang ada?


3.Tindakan anda bila dengar bunyi kilat dan petir?

masa untuk tidur

reaksi anda bila ada orang mengutuk anda

damn. tau kalu kutuk balik tu we're just as bad as they are, tapi kutuk balik gak. usually avoid je orang-orang camni, tapi kalau diorang intefere dengan my personal life, siapla kau. aku takkan duk senyap. tapi depends jugak, kalau tak big a threat sangat and I have better things to do and takde kudrat sangat nak plot revenge, buat donno je.

reaksi anda bila TERjumpa dengan artis favourite

selalunya buat relax je, bukannya kawan lama or Dato'-Dato' yang boleh berkenalan (sapa tau useful nanti nak 'mintak tolong' apa-apa.hehe) or kekasih hati pon nak get excited. haha. ok la, maybe kalau terserempak jarak dekat, sengih and minta autografla kot. kalau tak, biarkan dia blah gitu saja je.

maxis or celcom

celcom. tapi selalu je jahanamkan bill nombor maxis adik aku kalau celcom kena bar.

TIGA bad habit

banyak, but main three: MALAS, suka berleter macam MAK NENEK, mudah BESAR KEPALA.
..mak aihh..jatuh saham aku..

apa yang anda lakukan bila ada orang lain sebuk dengan hal anda

mula-mula wat donno je, tapi kalau dah anoying sangat tu, bagi je atas muka.

apa reaksi anda bila TERkentut busuk / kuat di khalayak ramai

hahaha..buat senyap ajela.biar orang saling munuduh, kalau orang tak perasan, keluar senyap-senyap. nak ngata belakang, ngatalah.. (erk? macam from experience je. takdela. )

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Underneath Your Clothes

Honestly, NOTHING dirty in this blog post, chill.

That's a Shakira song that I really like. I haven't any idea for a blog post title, I just so happen to be listening to this song.

Okay, I'm blogging to put things into perspective.

Pa just got a call from this Yayasan thing offering to give me a scholarship ONLY for my Foundation studies. Interview's this Saturday, proabably meting their Board of Trustees, so, sorry, can't hang out with some of ya guys.

The thing is, I know I still pine for JPA, but the last time, what happened?

Although I'd much rather want JPA (overseas appeal) or MARA, but looking at the circumstances of the very very very slim chance of getting it, well, if I got it, I'd be considered very lucky, in fact, it'd be a miracle, but maybe this Yayasan thing is a back door, just in case JPA ditched me again. Perhaps God is offering me a way out of this. And yes, I admit, I dread interviews, I'd rather start studying already like the rest of my friends, BUT, this could be my LAST chance to redeem myself, so I have to DO IT RIGHT this time. Otherwise..

Betulkan niat. Do my best for whatever is to come, like it or not. Basically, I have to take things in with an open heart and an open mind.

Yeah, I did also ask from MARA, and PNB has yet to be known of its status. So, anything can happen, and I'm sooo NOT in my comfort zone any more. At this crucial time, well, actually at ANY time, I should be bearing in mind that whatever comes my way is in God's hands. Humans propose, God dispose.

Okayyy..calm down..have faith. God may not give you what you want, but what you NEED. well, I hope my prayer is answered in whatever way is the best for me.

I always forget. I always do. I sometimes find my head, my big head, in the clouds, especially after a somewhat not-exactly-smooth-sailing-but-kind-of-successful-school-life. It's so easy to not be consistent. And too often I find myself either in a fit of anger or wallowing in self-pity, which is kind of bad.


Oh, I also read up on an overview of Medicine syllabus. Oh My God, it's BIOLOGY HAVEN!!!!!!!! Nothing but pure Biology ALL THE WAYY..yeah, I know, it's A LOT. I wonder how much Biology is in Biomedical Engineering, but for sure, there's a more diverse range of subjects in Biomedical Engineering. Chemistry, Physics, Calculus, Computer Skills and Circuits, I guess.

I'd LOVE to start studying NOW. I know most of my friends have already started. Especially those in Matriculation and UTP. The ones in Uni just finished their orientation. I did give the TOEFL guide attention nowadays. I'd really like to start on Calculus. Seriously. I know, there's a possibility of me complaining that I don't get it, but I'd rather have that, figure my way around that eventually than have my brain rot. I do hope I'd be given that opportunity to study.

Anyway, I gave in to my impulse today, and I bought, much to my satisfaction, this time, a red plaid shirt for RM 30. Yes, I'm broke now.

Yet, the nafsu never dies, it can only be restrained with Iman.

I find myself still obsessing over completing my wardrobe of containing clothes of every color. I had my eye on a blue RM 15 t-shirt with green slogan "save [water drop picture] save [light bulb picture] save [picture of Earth]" and a pair of Bata ankle-high high heel shoes which would look really great with jeans (I don't remeber the price, but definitely more than thirty bucks), and yes, I'm on the hunt for a pink tudung.

Percy Jackson still yet to be purchased. OMG so many things on my wish list, at a time with NO CASH.