Transience

Okay..here are my list of books that I've read this year so far.. I'll keep it updated by the end of 31st December. 1)The Alchemist 2)The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night Time 3)Christine 4)The DEvil Wears Prada 5)Jasmines On The Fourth Floor 6)The Demonata Book 3: Slawter 7)Percy Jackson and The Sea Of Monsters 8)The Witch Of Portobello 9)My Sister's Keeper 10)The Five People You Meet In Heaven 11)By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept 12) Twilight 13) Brazen Virtue 14) The Raider 15) Dr. Mahathir's Selected Letters to World Leaders apa lg..let me think..there's more I think..give me a sec.. well, for BM plak 1)Bagaikan Puteri 2)HAtiku di Harajuku 3)Ombak Rindu 4) Ayat-ayat Cinta kind of old, I know, I just don't read Malay that often..

Sometimes in life, we have to laugh ourselves silly..laughing at ourselves! Life must go on and there will always be more room for improvement. So, for my last post before I go back to school, I'm gonna put my debating pictures, then and now.. just for fun see how much I've evolved from the 4-minute emo speech to the 8-minute still emo speech, haha. however, I haven't any pictures on my public speaking though, so I don't know how I fared. One judge commented me last year that I was as stiff as a robot! so, here we go! THEN UIA 2007- against RMC, yep, this is the one I'm talking about! The most embarrassing debate, aww, my first time.. look at Mirul, covering his face in shame, Kak Ainul, praying kot? and at the back at that time, Teacher Rozy was having a good laugh with Amirul Irfan, RMC's researve at that time. okay..this went out of hand! what the hell was I doing?? These pictures are really old ones that reside in my thumbdrive that I have yet to upload.haha...

These are some more pictures from my debate escapades, haha, most of them are just for fun: This year's BM n BI team, one big happy family..me and MUiz with matching clothes Gambar2 org2 kuat makan.. with SBPI SElandar at SOgo Kir and Ann KAy sape lg kuat makan? hahahah I was the one with highest food expense at that table at that time RM 8.50 next is the gambar2 meja bsepah.. kesian kat SYTRA, the school that we're sharing the quarantine room (SMSAH Mappes) with.. dahsyatnye.apa nak jadi dgn anak dara x reti berkemas ni.. ni the peserta tag these are the good times we had when we painted the Alor Setar town red in Pekan Rabu tried my hand at bowling, look at the scores! This is the picture of future Top Models, taken at the SMSAH school compound FARIS wins big at the award night, attended by the KEdah SUltan held at Dewan WAwasan, Kubang PAsu we bagged two trophies! one for best overall and best academic performance. way to go! the one in red batik is our school's PK HEM- ...

I'm taking a break. The other computer's a whack and so, I'll blog here instead. I'll be ging back on Sunday *sigh* so, in the future I'll be blogging from a cyber caf, that is, if I ever get the chance if not, I'll have to go dormant again, but I am a truly avid blogger I get lost in the blogging world. so, for his post, I'll be posting the pictures from my debate career 2007-2008 next year will be my final year *sob,sob* I'm torned between law and sciences I'd love to continue debating for the rest of my lif, that would automatically make A lawyer being my future career choice, but I'm so totally set for a biomed career cos I really want to bring something back to Malaysia to be shared and benefitted by all the people but then again, there's the Bank Negara thing. I doubt that leadership is my forte'. I'm really hoping my prinsip akaun would urn around, perhaps I will have a brighter career in finance and economics.. *hopeful* can...

wanna play? The Rules: 1) Each Blogger must post these rules first 2)Answer the questions below and list down 3 people you tag. 3)Don't forget to leave a comment telling them that they've been tagged and to read your blog. 1) Which do you prefer: Black or White? Black. 2) What kind of a person do you think you are? Syakir says I'm a whore, but I think it's the other way around..hmm.. personally I think I'm a loudmouth bitch that always gets herself into sticky situations and at times i think I'm as good as gold.. *wink,wink* 3) Blue or Red? Black. 4) What's your mood right now? hot as hell 5) List down 5 things you did yesterday Handle vomit-stained clothes waited at the side of the road *yawn* Sleep in the car ate Nasi Ayam Haiqal-damn good chow, if ya ask me Drank warm lychee drink. basically like wat ma sis did 6) List two of your best friends no human names in particular I do have a name in mind, but lets keep it at that, shall we? 7) What kind of a guy ...

Okay, that's a weird title to start off with! well, I've had my politic streak some time ago and my poetics and what not and now..syiwang?? please no, that is totally out of the question. I just took a look at my pal's blog, frankerism..he wrote about SBP which struck me to write a post about it too. sad to say, it has been fun, but also sad since every year, HKSBP seems to mark the end of the career for sbp debaters at school levella, I mean, who knows, maybe they'd comntinue at university, but it certainly won't be the same, especially the memories. this year's weirdest and most annoying p.o.i. award goes to SAKTI. It totally ticks me off when the speakers are like, trying to get my attention by saying "p.o.i., cutie". God, that is like, so..overrated! and not to mention, yuck and a violation of privacy? ok, that's too much, but nobody calls me cute except my 'authorised personnels' only! haha, Faris is..ok..this year. two wins, the other...

How am I holding up lately? haha, funny question. Recently I went back to Kelantan for an interview for a Bank Negara scholarship. YES!!! I'm on par with Faisal! he got Bank Negara too. but i am not as confident that I'd get it. I wondered if it was really me who walked through the door yesterday. I just wouldn't know for sure. However, I'm not that confident that I'd get it. but even if I don't. I'd pledge to myself that I'd get the big one: the go-wherever-I-like-in-whatever-jurusan-scholarship one for top 5 malaysia SPM 2009. well, we'll see how I hold up for sure! anyway, along with me the other day, there were two others from my school: syuhada and hairul. that syuhada gal sure is making me run for my money she's a tough cookie a lot tougher than hakim hairul, on the other hand, sure is a testy one not easily susceptible to my..ehem, charms? don't get me wrong, I just do it for kicks, maybe, perhaps as a confidence boost, in way? but it ...

I can't sleep. It's 12.13 in the morning of May 30th and I've just finished reading Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper, the best novel of the year yet I've read. Highly recommended for readers looking for a book that can have an impact on their lives other than Paolo Coelho, but that actually depends if you're actually susceptible to the heart-rending experience of trawling through such tomes for inspirational stories. Well, all in all..this book has not failed me. The twist and suspense unravels beautifully which makes this a gripping unputdownable story. In the middle it does get boring a bit when the author dishes out on the regular days of human beings, delaying the pace slightly, as expected, but only then did I realize that it actually had me off guard temporarily to deliver the climactic blow of one of the most memorable endings, I should say. It had my tears suddenly streaming down my cheeks for some inexplicable reason. well, worth the spend, I shoul...

Right up from the principal's retirement to HKSBP debate, my school life has been very much eventful. I don't know how I did on the exams this time, though but I'm expecting the results to 'hurt' a bit now that I'm back, I feel like just kicking off my shoes off my sore feet and jump under the covers rest and relax... it has been quite a while since I last had one..

Haha, it's been a looong time since I last blogged and after a while, I found myself a need to blog! The debate ranks ffrom UIA has arrived. Faris is at rank 44. I'm at rank 106 in the speakers' list with Zuhri Kamil of STAR at the very top. Then, from UIA, I went straight to HKSBP Zon Timur in BAtu Rakit. I was sursprised I was champion for public speaking, but I figured that maybe the big competitors have already retired and finally gave me a chance for first. Right now, I'm busy with the mids I've recently read Darren Shan's Demonata Book Three: Slawter and Rick Riordan's Percy Jackson and The Sea of Monsters, borrowed from Farhan. I didn't like Darren Shan, but Percy was great!! I love Greek Mythology, haha, one of the facts in the sudut maklumat of my Sejarah book. I also read JAsmines On The 4th Floor, can't remember who wrote it, though. I borrowed it from Fatin. it was a like a typical local romance novel, very cliche'd and stuff, but th...

whoa...I'm fresh out of ATP rite now, haha, as if that's possible! so much facts and so little time. I got loads off the net and have yet to print them. If i did, I'd already have a pile, neatness not guaranteed, by the side of my bed. a bit heavy to digest and despite the groing quantity, it is still not enough. I have to find more at school, that is, if I can. The ICT facilities there are not really satisfying. I mean, yes, there are plenty of computers, but in terms of usage, totally ineffective. If I wasn't tempted to the dark side by the friendster, I could have probably still enjoyed doing net searches like I used to. Now it seemed like a drag! I still feel excited over the goldmine of information I got, but my interests were hindered significantly by the haunting thought, "how am I suppose to make time? there's no time! you got notes to read" drat! If it were lower secondary, I'd easily aced it without even the need to do any revision at all. Th...

I've just returned from my first trial of candy making. It turns out that prototype 1 and 2 of Fever-Cooling Candy didn't turn out right, so I guess it's back to the drawing board to improvise. I've been listening to A Beautiful Lie by 30 seconds To Mars. It was all about global-warming and when I flipped the channel to discovery, I was bestowed a shocking revelation of how a tilt of a few degrees in the earth's axis could change everything. wow. It's strange that nobody gave a damn about it in my cotton candy-walled school.

n.e.r.d. d.o.r.k. g.e.e.k. and the likes.. no, I am not a victim of such labelling cases, although I was once deemed a 'know-it-all at primary school'. who gave the authority for people to label other people like that? I strongly believe that classification by stereotypes limits any individual. why can't everybody be in a class of their own? I mean, if we tend to label people, it's like giving color tags to people. like in a library, the librarian would say to a toddler, "those books are tagged red. they're adult fiction. stay away from those" and talking about fiction, I've recently finished reading another one of Syakir's novels, The Devil Wears Prada, yes, like the movie, only that I haven't seen the movie yet. At a whole, it was totally funny and witty. sometimes, it does get a bit tiring to read about how poor Andrea makes her best attempts to cater to Miranda Priestly's impossible whims and impress her. It's a cliche'd rags -t...

is it a blessing? or a curse? I enjoy it, yet I despise it what is wrong with me? do I have a mental condition? I do not know why I couldn't enjoy anything at my school. It feels like a prison. It forces you into these cocurricular stuff only because you are the only one who can. it has this mindset that, "okay fine, we can't make it with so many competitors, let's pick something that doesn't have many competitors and we can boast that our star player(the only player!) got third place(3 out of 3) for state level, and almost made it to the nationals."- MSSK Golf if you read that statement without the words in the bracket, I bet most people would be awed with the achievement, but the ugly truth is that wretched school knows how to lull itself the sleep. I'm not a great player, then why did they set up this fake reality around me? I am like the 'Jaguh Kampung'. What is the true measurement of an achiever? the best there does not mean that they are the...

WHOA!! another Paramore song title for you..well..here is an excerpt from a Friendster bulletin. yes, it is the ugly truth that seems to irritate me so much. face it, everybody's a racist, even me, I admit that. But, Malays, I beg you, p-l-e-a-s-e be rational? haha, another post directed to the Malays. plaese, I am utterly disgusted with your attitudes, I am saying this despite being a Malay myself. Date: Saturday, 15 March, 2008 8:27 PM Subject: reply to aimie aimiot's post Message: Aimie wrote...PULAU PINANG AKAN JADI SINGAPURA KEDUA? Message: ...DEAR IR AKUKAMUDIA..saya setuju sgt2!! DEB DAH TAK ADE...KAMPUNG PUN AKAN TAK ADA...PROJEK OPEN TENDER SEMUA BOLEH MASUK...MASJID DI BANDAR PP?..RASANYA MUNGKIN TAKKAN ADA...ADIL DAN SAKSAMA..MAKNA SEMUA MASYARAKAT AKAN DAPAT TETAPI KENA ADA KEMAMPUNAN DAN NILAI YANG TINGGI.. MASYARAKAT MELAYU KENALAH BERSAING DENGAN MASYARAKAT LAIN YANG JAUH LEBIH CEMERLANG DARI SEGI EKONOMI MCM SINGAPURA...ORANG MELAYU MUNGKIN AKAN BERADA JAUH DI ...

Okay, it has been a while since I wrote reviews. it is rare that you find me in good moods nowadays. Well, for this year, I've read a few books. after a few years back of missing out in reading, I make a vow that I'll read a minimum of ten novels per year, considering the little amount of time I have left. No, I don't mean reading little teeny-tiny books. I'm talking about 200 hundred pages ++ with size-12 font, and that doesn't include magazines. And to get me on the reading habit, I started borrowing books from Syakir, thank God, bless him. The first book I borrowed is Paolo Coelho's The Alchemist. The description's real good. It's the most religious book I've ever read all my life, okay, not exactly religious, but very heavy with insight and philosophy, which I know, Syakir adores so much. The next one is The Mystery Of The Dog In The Night Time. I forgot who wrote it, but it was interesting because the narrator was a spastic child. A bit heavy t...

suddenly, I have this identity crisis. Like Hamlet says, 'to be or not to be? That is the question." Ever since my BM teacher, Cikgu Mat pulled a million-dollar brainstorming slot question at me: Are you proud to be a Malay? well, I am left with no option than to say yes. I am a Malay. And then, he asked me, "why?" well, on second thought, I don't really know. I haven't the foggiest idea, but then, why do I rave on and on, assuring myself that I am a Malay? What is my purpose? suddenly when I find myself in a 100% Malay situation, I tend to indulge in the worst of Malay-ism: the car owner vs. the car washer attitude. yes, there are successful people and people who have failed, they reason. but if everybody were to succeed, then who would fail? yes, there are people who own big cars and there are people who are paid to do the dirty work, washing the car, but that doesn't mean they own the car, do they? why did these Malays let themselves be outbested by ot...

okay, I sound like a damn racist in the previous post, well, I wasn't that cheerful anyway. Suddenly, after the public speaking competition, my worst holiday yet seemed to turn around for the better, if you can overlook the fact that I'd be going back to face the first term exam, but suddenly, I can just go out there and say that..I'm okay.

yaddyaddyayadda I hate politics. I never gave a damn about it before this. I used to think that it was all about stupid people running the country. That was, until I came to know about Mahathir, the one and only reason why I have stayed faithful to my race that I endlessly criticised and despised al these years. I've noticed a pattern in History of Malaysian politics. When it came to winning the election, it has always got to do with winning with the favor of other races. why must it be so? it's as if the other races have the greater power over Malaysia. c'mon! it's our country! its so pathetic that in each manifesto evryone semua macam nak mengampu each other. empty promises that supposedly will cater to every races' needs. even before merdeka there were more non-malays than there were malays, which made it necessary to gain favor from the non-malays to get votes. okay, I admit it, I'm an ultra-Malay.i want nothing but the best for my people, despite my critici...

yeah! the new song in my head! rock on, Paramore! This frustrates me, where have all my beautiful posts have gone to? Now I don't really blog much and all I could ever come up with are my rantings. What's worse, most of them are not grammatically correct and my punctuations have all gone haywire. Have I not learnt language ever in my life?? In contrary to my sister's blog, yeah, she seems to rant a lot in it to, but I've never seen someone vent her anger so beautifully ever in my life, in a blog! well, I could vent my anger in this blog too, if i wished, but I'd edit out the four-letter words I'd be tempted to display, and all that's left of it are just dry, cold, flat self-repeating words that my subconscious record-player would play again and again in my head like that new, okay, not exactly new, Paramore song, Misery Business.